words from a broken soul

Regret

We all have regrets
Mine well my biggest one is
My lack of care I have for myself
The first relationship I had it crashed
And burned but I just wanted to know
What it felt like to be loved
I kept going back to them just for it
To burn in two weeks if I was lucky two months
We all have regrets

I have nothing against them but
Tearing apart Someone's psyche
Especially when that someone is insecure
You just don't do that to make them face
The problems they're trying to run from
It does more harm than good
Do I hate them not really but do I like them
Just about as much I can handle a packed
Room full of complete strangers so not much
We all have regrets

I regret that I even typing these words
We used to be the closest of friends
But shit keeps happening to them
We don't talk anymore I was genuinely shocked
To get a happy birthday from them
Always thought that they forgot about me
They probably should to be honest
We all have regrets

I regret that I wish I could burn all
The memories of them into ash
But alas something is keeping them as life lessons
That's probably the justification
If that's the case I don't blame them
We all have regrets

I regret that I can't see us picking back up
We were really close friends
But now I just feel like I'm a stranger to them
I probably am if I'm being honest
But the thing is I don't regret the friendship
That we had when we were friends
They broke me out my shell
But dating them broke me always worrying
How badly they hurt themselves and feeling
Utterly useless because I can't help them
We all have regrets

The shit sleep I fucking got from worrying
If the conversation I last had with them
Would be the last time I talked to them
The guilt of not being able to help them
Because I didn't know how the regret
Of them never feeling comfortable enough
To open up with me there's so much
That I didn't and don't fucking know
We all have regrets

I regret that I wasn't the best partner
I was supposed to be but I've
Never dated anyone before them
And the people I would ask advice from
Well they were dead and gone from the world
I always wonder what those two would say
We all have regrets

Would they give me any advice
Or would they just not know what to say
One would probably lecture me on
Do as I say and not as I do
Which yeah I can see that happening
The other I honestly don't know what he would say
Probably crack a smart-ass remark
Tell me that I made my bed I should lie in it
We all have regrets

I regret that I took those who were
The world to me for granted
Just for them to become dead when I was young
I still remember how broken I was after
The second one died
Didn't go to school for two days
We all have regrets

Then when I did my class student teacher
Noticed I was in a sour mood compared to
My usual joyful one when he asked me
What was wrong I just broke down
He took me up to our classroom where
I spent the whole breakfast period sobbing
The day after that was when the mask was donned
We all have regrets

Hide the pain from everyone just to get
Betrayed by my eyes they became dull
No they become lifeless no joy in them
Not when the two people who made
Living in hell just a bit bearable
We all have regrets

Hug all your friends and family
You never know when their life
Will be snuffed out like a flame
That never got the chance Lighting the pit
Take no one for granted cherish everyone
You hold dear to you because I regret
How little time I spent with those who
Meant the world to me
We all have regrets