words from a broken soul

Weight

Weight it's such a fickle thing
Yet anyone can tell you people
Always will voice their opinion on
You weight to the point it gets annoying
I was always underweight for my age range
Hell I'm probably still underweight for my age
But the thing is people don't understand
How damaging it is to say that you're to big
That you should eat or that you need to exercise
Or my case it was that I need more meat on my bones
Weight it's such a fickle thing

Thing is those comments are hurtful asinine even
They can actually lead to eating disorders
Which it's fucking miracle I never had one
But my heart goes out to those who have one
Thing is I was called a holocaust victim
Now that's the best insult but fucked up
Because that was to me in elementary
But like most disorders there isn't a clear cause
Weight it's such a fickle thing

But some common causes are as stated on the mayo clinic website are
Biology specifically changes in brain chemicals
Family history someone in the family has one
Other mental illness such as trauma, depression, anxiety, OCD(obsessive compulsive disorder) and other illnesses
Now a key reason to me is being bullied for ones weight
Weight it's such a fickle thing

But that just my opinion another is stress
Let's focus on the bullying cause because
Well humans are a cruel thing on the planet
They say a lot a do a lot of hurtful things
But humans are especially cruel to strangers
And school it's just fucking hell
But some people see a bigger person
And they always will make an asinine comment
Weight it's such a fickle thing

About how you should eat less or go to the gym
Well that just ruins your mood immediately
But it's even worse if the bigger person is
Say happy with the size they are and lash
Out on the commenter because that person
Will assume that the one happy with their size
Is truly unhappy with how they look
Also another thing that might cause eating disorders
Is dieting and starvation yes these are both
Weight it's such a fickle thing

As listed on the mayo clinic as a cause for eating disorders
Dieting because a change of weight going
Up and down from the frequent changes of diets
And starvation because of how it affects the brain
Which causes rigid thinking, mood changes, anxiety and reduced appetite
Now all of these can lead to one developing an eating disorder
Weight it's such a fickle thing

But there's one more medication
And I'm speaking from my experience now
When I was in fifth or sixth grade
I was diagnosed with adhd and the med
I was prescribed was Adderall quite common
Med from my gathering for people with adhd
But when I first started taking it I barely ate
Even when I was hungry I didn't eat much
Or anything some times that continued
For most of my school life basically until
Probably freshman year was when we fond
A dosage that wouldn't fuck with my Appétit
Weight it's such a fickle thing

But what I think is this fuck everyone who
Can't mind their own business and must
Make an asinine and hurtful comment
About something that could be out your control
Simply because they don't know what
A metabolism is or what I does
The same can be said for the thyroid
But I'll say this the greatest way to piss
Those rude people off is to be happy
With the way you look and ignore the
Outrageously high beauty standards
Because they saying beauty is in the eye of the beholder
Well that saying will always be true to me
Weight it's such a fickle thing

You may not like your body size or shape
And that perfectly fine but someone out there
Will love you no matter what your size is
They will remind you that yes you are beautiful
That you deserve to be loved and to be honest
This is just my thoughts but the bigger your body is
The better the cuddling partner you make
No hate for the skinny people out there
You guys make good cuddling partners too
But I know from my ex's my body for
The most part is a boney weapon unless
We were lying down so I'm told and think
But all bodies are hot bodies that's not
Even a hill that I'll die on it's a small mound
Weight it's such a fickle thing

We've grown up with outrageous beauty standards
And if you don't fit into those damn boxes
Everyone is a douchebag to you because
You're not up to their standards tell them to
Fuck off with their bullshit because looks
Aren't where its at for me it's all about your
Personality thanks to the father figure who
Ingrained that looks are ultimately useless
Especially if they have a great personality
Weight it's such a fickle thing