No matter who you are you have a fear of something
For me it's agoraphobia, , and fear of heights
Now some of you might not know what agoraphobia is
It's simply the fear of going outside
Perk of being paranoid to the point your brain is in a manic like state
The fear of the outside stems from the fear of running into my abusers
Not because I'm scared of them I'm scared for them
For what they did to me I want to snuff out their life like a flame that never lit the pit
Yet I'm always reminded what I would lose if I did attack them
It's just not worth it to me yet I long for them to suffer like they made me and my siblings
Yet they're untouchable legally that is physically no
Just not worth it my breath is better spent than focusing on revenge
But a part of me will always long for them to suffer like I did
But that's a part of me we all have towards our abusers unless Stockholm syndrome kicked in
In that case I feel bad for the victim but
There's not much that can be that's a hard syndrome to break
Even then it's only really gonna work if you catch the symptoms early on
Not saying it's impossible to do it in the late stages just really hard to do
You'd have better luck trying to convince a narcissistic person that their to blame for the problems they caused
Even then that takes a strong willed person to do in of itself
But C'est la vie for you
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words from a broken soul
PoetryI don't own the two songs I've posted on the two newest poems but give them a listen if you like. just a collection of free verse/rondel poems(short stories to lengthy ones I guess) I've written over the course of ten months so far some won't be upl...
