words from a broken soul

Nightmare

Nightmares they're human nature
But the thing is a lot are man made
Most my life was a fucking nightmare
Getting molested every night
Getting raped others
Being made to be a "good toy"
Nightmares they're human nature

I fear of what Nightmares I have
Yet I can't remember any of them
These scars wish I could tell ya about them
They keep me up at night think
How the hell did I get them all
Nightmares they're human nature

There's only so much before the brain
It shatters and creates other To hold
What they can to do what the brain
Needed growing up they purpose
It ranges from what the brain deems right
Nightmares they're human nature

I didn't grow up without my wounds
They'll never heal
They're twisted
They're gnarled
They're festering
They're opening
They're gonna get patched and forgotten
Nightmares they're human nature

But the thing is Nightmares come from
What we went through and man
Is the greatest at making Nightmares
Look at the past of america
Doesn't matter were you look
Nightmares are to be seen
The greatest of Nightmares are the psychological practices of the past
Nightmares they're human nature
Most people you know would be locked away and lobotomized
The things most people go through daily back then were thought to be demonic possession by the church
And well church back then had the most power in any community
So many were ostracized from the community
Simply for being different which was really a mental illness
Those who were strange and different from the rest of the community
They were basically beaten to death while a church member prayed for the "demons"
To leave the poor soul that's basically dead
Nightmares they're human nature

I personally would be lobotomized
The reason I have a disorder that most
Don't believe is real that I just want attention
Grow the fuck up no one like me has it
And wants attention no we're abuse survivors
From a young age might I add
From the ages of 4-9
I was molested every night to "learn how to please a woman"
If that wasn't happening I was being Raped
Just because I wasn't a girl
Now if that wasn't bad enough
I was made to hate my mom through lies
I was verbally abused hence the reason
I don't have much worth for myself
I was abused physically used as punching bag while being Raped
Ribs were the prime subject to the punching
Nightmares they're human nature

But now I'm just a traumatized ghost
Meandering through the hell called life
The Nightmares they're the wounds of
The past that plague my mind
The scars what story do they hold
What other wounds were inflicted
And patched up by questionable doctors
Nightmares they're human nature