Let's Forget the Past

I OWE YOU THAT

ALISON'S POV
-EM, CAN YOU SAY SOMETHING PLEASE? I pleadingly ask. EM WILL YOU LOOK AT ME.
Emily is now sitting on the chair in the corner of Courtney's room staring into blank space.
-I UNDERSTAND IF YOU WANNA LEAVE ME I say looking at Emily while crying. I HAVE A BABY AND I'M SORRY FOR NOT TELLING YOU. I LOVE YOU AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO LEAVE ME, BUT I'LL UNDERSTAND IF YOU DO I say while sobbing.
Emily looks up at me before saying
-I'M NOT GOING TO LEAVE YOU ALISON. CAN YOU JUST GIVE ME A MINUTE? Emily questions looking down at her shoes.
-YEAH I say sniffling. SURE.
I pick up Courtney and her bottle leaving the room.
10 minutes later Emily comes into the kitchen and stands directly in front of me asking
-CAN WE TALK?
I nod my head and hand Courtney to CeCe.
-BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING I HAVE TO TELL YOU HOW I GOT PREGNANT AND WHAT HAPPENED I blurt out as we walk into Courtney's room.
-YOU DON'T HAVE TO ALI Emily says sitting down with folded arms.
-NO, I DO! I say. I OWE YOU THAT I add sitting down holding Emily's hands.
-I WAS 15 WHEN I GOT PREGNANT WITH COURTNEY. MY DAD STARTED TOUCHING ME WHEN I TURNED 14. HE TOLD ME THAT IF I TOLD ANYONE HE WOULD KILL ME, SO I KEPT QUIET I say fidgeting with my fingers.
-IT DIDN'T TAKE LONG FOR MY MOM TO FIGURE OUT WHAT WAS GOING ON. THEN CECE FOUND OUT AND BEGGED MY MOM TO LET ME STAY WITH HER BUT SHE SAID NO I say while holding back the lump now forming in my throat.
-THE TOUCHING SOON TURNED INTO SEX. THE FIRST TIME IT HAPPENED I TRIED TO FIGHT HIM OFF BUT HE HIT ME ACROSS MY FACE TELLING ME THAT I HAD TO BE A GOOD GIRL FOR DADDY.
I begin to cry as I'm talking to Emily telling her what happened.
-LONG STORY SHORT MY MOTHER STAYED WITH HIM SO THE RAPE CONTINUED. I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT AND TOLD NO ONE. OF COURSE ONCE I STARTED TO SHOW MY DAD BELIEVED THAT THE BABY WAS MY BOYFRIEND REGGIE'S AND REGGIE THOUGHT I CHEATED ON HIM. ANYWAY THAT'S WHEN THE SLUT SHAMING BETWEEN THE TWO STARTED I say while crying.
-I WAS JUST A KID BUT YET I WAS SCARED, PREGNANT AND ALONE I say as I begin to cry more than before.
Emily began to hold me and stroke my hair crying with me.
-WHEN I WAS 16 I GAVE BIRTH AND MY PARENTS MADE ME GIVE THE BABY UP FOR MONEY. INSTEAD I TOOK THE MONEY AND GAVE COURTNEY TO CECE. MY MOM STILL DOESN'T KNOW I say while trying to laugh.
I look at Emily and I can tell she feels pain in her heart.
-ALI, I'M SORRY Emily says. I'M SO SORRY BABE she says now kissing my head.
-PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME I say looking up into Emily's eyes. I NEED YOU.
-I WOULD NEVER LEAVE YOU she states. I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU ALISON, AND ANYTHING THAT COMES FROM YOU. I DON'T EVEN KNOW COURTNEY YET AND I ALREADY LOVE HER BECAUSE OF YOU Emily says.
We sit there in the middle of the floor hugging.
We soon fall asleep cuddling, staying like that for about an hour until CeCe and Courtney wakes us.