Soulmates

Girl Talk

The day after the date you and Natasha are in her room hanging out. You lay on her bed and are about to tell her about your date. She pulls out a flask and drinks as you talk to her.

You take longer to say something than is ideal for her so she asks impatiently. "So how did it go?" She asks taking sip of the tequila in her flask. "Did you go to Paris?"

You blush and sit up, looking at her guiltily. "You're gonna kill me for not telling you sooner." She chuckles as you avoid eye contact. "Well tell me now so I don't have to."

"So I've never slept with anyone one before and I told the boys...and they were so understanding." She shakes her head as you look up at her and she takes another sip out of the flask handing it off to you. "I'm not even surprised. Continue..."

You take a drink and before you know, you've finished it. "Okay, I'm out. Let's go get more from Tony's stash." You both head to Tony's stash of liquor in his lab while you finish telling her.

"Steve and I decided that we were going to lose it together because Steve hasn't been with anyone either." You take turns drinking the newly opened bottle as you talk.

"And Barnes is okay with that?" She asks putting the bottle down. "I haven't told him yet. Steve and I think he'll understand. I'll tell him soon though. I haven't had the chance yet since our date."

You go to grab the bottle and she takes it away. "No, you cannot hold your liquor. And you better tell him sooner than later. Im not so sure hell be okay with you choosing Steve over him."

You drop your jaw slightly and look at her slightly annoyed. "I'm not choosing Steve over him. I just feel like since Steve and I have Both never had sex before, when we're ready we want to lose it together. It'll be special."

"Would it be special if you lost it to Bucky?" You get more annoyed the more she questions you. Of course it would. You and Steve just thought the idea of losing it together would really mean something to you. It would with Bucky too but it was somewhat different. He wasn't a virgin like you and Steve. Not that you cared.

"Of course it would!" You raise your voice slightly. "But for Steve and I to lose it together, that would be so romantic and it would mean the world to him. It would be so special to him."

Natasha picks up on your slight anger and softens her tone. "You can't plan who you're going to lose it to. If it happens with Steve, that's how it happens." You roll your eyes and shake your head at her. "I'm not planning-" She cuts you off.

"Yes you are. Hear me out." You look away and bite the inside of your jaw, not saying anything. Waiting for her to talk. "If it happens with Bucky first, it happens. It happens when you're ready not because you plan it."

You get less annoyed as you realize what she's saying makes sense and you finally look at her. "It will be special for Steve because it will be with you. Regardless of whether or not you already lost it to Bucky. You do it when you're ready and when you're in the moment with whichever one you want it to be with."

"Okay, that makes since..." You admit. "I really needed that. Now I have to talk to Steve." You get up off the floor where you'd been sitting with her and help her up. "And tell Bucky what you and Steve ad discussed. Then tell him why you decided against that."

"Got it! Thanks. I don't want Bucky finding out somehow and thinking I was hiding it." As the words leave your mouth the door opens and Bucky walks in. Obviously heading for Tony's whiskey collection when he overhears you. 

"Hiding what doll?"