Soulmates

It's Never Gonna Be The Same

Later that night, you had the twins loaded in the car, they were asleep, Steve and Bucky were in the car, and Peter was in the very back again. Steve and Bucky say you front and you would sit in between the twins.

You went back inside to use the restroom before you left because well, you had three children all fighting for space and at least once of them was laying in your bladder at all times. When you go inside, everyone's already turned in for the night, except you see Nat, in the living room, walking around.

She's picking up all the confetti you had left in the floor. Tony had insisted you left it there and he would clean it in the morning so you could get home with the kids before it got too late. But there Nat was, picking it up. She was looking at it confused, wondering why there was pink and blue confetti.

She sees you and looks up. "Why pink and blue? Twins again?" She asks. As if nothing happened. So nonchalant. And you reply back the same. "Triplets. Two boys and a girl." You say. She nods her head and continues to pick up the confetti. You start to make your way to the bathroom once again but she stops what she's doing and it draws your attention again.

"Y/n, I'm sorry. For everything. When I got back, everything was perfect, and then it was too perfect. I needed something to change in my life, I wanted a child and I can't have one. Nothing was happening for me. I got bored. And Bruce and I separated. I figured Steve was my best friend all this time, maybe we might have something, even though he was your husband, I know it's wrong, but you have two. You were all arguing, I thought maybe...and after everything that happened with us at your house I realized that i was jealous and I was wrong. And I'm sorry." She says.

"You were. Jealous. And wrong. And tried to steal my husband. And made me feel like I didn't appreciate them. You made me feel like I wasn't a good wife or a good mother. And you told my husbands about my pregnancy when you knew I had never gotten the chance to tell them about my others. You knew that was special to me and you took it. Because you were bored." You say back.

You were glad she was apologizing. She owed you an apology. But you were still so angry and had so much to say. You wanted to mend things with her, but you had to tell her how you felt first. You wanted to make sure she knew the damage she caused.

"I know. It was wrong. So wrong. And I can't say I'm sorry enough. I wish I could go back but I can't. I had no business doing that and I knew it would hurt you and I did it anyway. I was a terrible friend. A terrible person. And I'm sorry I told them about the pregnancy. I had no right and i was awful." She says.

"I know you're sorry, and I know deep down you didn't mean everything you did. You were acting out because of your own personal problems, but it's not okay. Things can't go back to the way they were, and I'm not forgiving you, but I need us to move on." You say.

"So do I." Nat says. "We're not just picking up where we left off. We can talk, be friends, whatever you wanna call it. But I'm not your best friend. And you're not mine. I don't think you ever were because if you had been, you wouldn't have done want you did. Hell a decent friend wouldn't have even done that. But once I leave here, we can put it all behind us and start over, but it's never gonna be the same." You say.