Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 87: I'm On My Way to My Heart

The plane ride when it came time for Aerosmith's tour break was long and eternal, I was worried about Nikki and our daughters and STILL I mulled over canceling the tour....as you know, I would end up or rather Aerosmith would end up not doing that. still, all THAT came about after I saw Nikki in person and I nearly did cancel as I have said, because I would do ANYTHING for my EVERYTHING. As yes, the plane ride I wasn't the only one who was anxious and what sleep I did get I dreamed of my family: my husband, my two oldest children and our three unborn....and the fact that poor Nikki, had been in the hospital for severe morning sickness already before I came home and had went home very briefly and straight back...it scared me, US but we had all the help and support we needed and one more thing: Nikki IS and always shall be my home, MY family is......

After a long exhausting plane ride, an eternal landing process and letting my husband know somewhere in all this that I was on my way to him....at the hospital and the guys giving my children, husband and I our time together. While of course, insisting on helping us, letting me know for whatever was needed......the point is, I AM HERE at last and right at this moment, two VERY precious little girls run towards me and I scoop them up in my arms, NEVER wanting to let them go. (Vaguely aware that Tommy Lee is here with his and Steven Adler Lee's daughter: Athena and Tommy is telling me he's at home resting right now and that he will be back if I need him or be back at some point)

"Thank you, Tommy, seriously thank you....to you and Popcorn both for helping me take care of Nikki and my daughters." I thank him profusely not taking my eyes off my little girls.

"If anything, I should thank you Joe...." It is these words that make me land my gaze on him, touched and curious both. "---What you've done for MY Steven, giving me advice that led to me asking the love of my life to marry me and for saving Nikki's life and how happy you make him. Sides we're family, man. Now be with your girls and nikki, they've really missed you." I whisper a 'thank you' once again and soon he departs, and it is me and my girls sharing a moment and God have I missed this!

"Daddy miss ew wots an' wots! An'...An' mommy sikki an' scawed." Amara's little lips begin to tremble, and finally the tears they come.

"Hey, I've missed you too Amara, you and Josephine and mommy so much...." I sigh tearfully, "I know how ill he's been, and I know how scary it was for you and your sister. Daddy is here now, and I am gonna take care you all. I've really missed you all so much, but I promise you no matter what or where I am, I will take care of you, and I love so very much."

"Pomise?" She asks.

"No lie."

"Daddy?" Josephine pipes up.

"Yes sweetheart?" i ask, answering her.

"I am happy to see you, missed you so much. Mommy talked about you all the time, it felt like you were there. But it scary when mommy couldn't stop getting sick and pass out." Josephine's lips tremble on the last part, looking upset and THAT breaks my heart. 

"You don't know how happy I am to see YOU and your sister and mommy, and I am always with you, always...." I say trying to soothe her and myself really before I pause a moment, "I know exactly how you feel, now let's go see mommy and take care of him, cheer him up ok?"

I hug them both once more to me, and Josephine holds tight to one hand while I hold Amara in my arms and before I know it, I SEE Nikki....my heart leaps and drops both and the tears come back in full force.

So pale, so very pale.... he really looks like he's been thru the ringer but then he also...looks so damn beautiful, glowing really and he takes my breath away. I love him, I love all of him and I see the light in his eyes seeing me and our now two oldest children....

I rush to his side, and the girls carefully demand to cuddle with their mother in his hospital bed and I have not the heart to say no, nor would I and the next thing I know is I feel NIKKI, am surrounded by him as I kiss him like I haven't kissed him in YEARS.

"I've really missed you Honeybee...so much....so very much. I've been so worried about you, but baby I am here now, and I love you Nikki, God do I love you." Caressing his face now, "I wish I'd have gotten here sooner babe.... i should have been here.... I SHOULD, I mean I know you don't want me to cancel the tour.... but YOU Nikki means more to me, you and our family and I---" I ramble tearfully, before my husband cuts me off and carefully caresses my cheek.

"I love you too Jo-Jo Bear..." Nikki whispers palling, trying NOT to get sick. "I-I.... don't...w-want you to...c-cancel....and I know.... I...." I know what's coming, the girls are upset now, and quick as I can I hand Nikki something to get sick in and he sobs and heaves at the same time and I am sure it feels like an eternity but really it lasts over 10 minutes before he finally stops, laying back looking spent and sobbing still, "I-I.....J-Joe....." Nikki croaks.

"Hey, I've got you ok?" I soothe, as I quickly help him rinse his mouth out, manage to soothe my daughters and have him down a lot of ice water and before I can say or do anything else.... Nikki again speaks, looking upset.... sad, resolved....and Amara and Josephine cling carefully to him. Yet too I see the light in his gorgeous green orbs.

"I... I.... wanted to tell you....and the girls....in person.... and...and I.... I'm..." He takes a breath, "I'm pregnant Joe, girls.... pregnant with triplets." Amaras and Josephine's eyes widen collectively but I see how happy they are despite being worried about their mother.

"That true mommy?" Josephine asks.

"Dat why fee bad?" Amara asks.

"Yes..." Nikki answers slowly, "Its.... it's true." And Nikki shifts his gaze to me, still upset but his eyes full of love, "We're gonna get that big family we dreamed of Joe."

"You don't know how much I LOVE THAT, that it means to me Nikki." I reach for one of his hands and hold tightly to it, threading our fingers together.

"It's...It's scary and amazing......" Here Nikki sighs heavily, "I meant to tell you I meant what I told you Joe, I don't want you to cancel the tour. I know I and our children mean more.... but it took me so long to learn this: you are always with me even when we aren't physically together.... You take care of me no matter what or where you are, and I know that you will always come back to me. we can do this, we can.... we have all the help we need, it won't be easy, but we aren't alone."

"Ok Honeybee, ok.... you are so right, so right."

"Do you wanna feel the babies?" Nikki asks, eyes shining.

"I would love to." Emotional, and I look to him, and our oldest girls and I ask to them/tell them, "What do you girls think about all this? And let me tell you now, I love all five of my children very, very much."

"Daddy, I happy.... really happy and I help take care of sissy, mommy and babies." Josephine says, and it touches Nikki and I both but then she floors us with, "I-I... had dream at Christmas, that was Christmas again and mommy have babies.... sissy and I ask lots of questions to mommy and daddy and mommy you were so happy; everyone was.... and there was lots and lots of love." Amara echoes similar sentiments in her own way, burrowing more into Nikki's embrace.......

I could NEVER forget that moment when Josephine said that.... never. and after those magical, beautiful words I FELT the three precious little angels inside my beloved husband......

A/N: Joe is here, he and Nikki are reunited and now their family is reunited again. Next time, we will pick up basically were we've left off here and you will see.