Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 39: I'd Do Anything for my Everything Part 3

We've just settled down to eat, me first and foremost making sure Nikki is ok and is as comfortable as he can be, when suddenly he bursts into tears alarming everyone, especially me but all that matters is doing whatever I can to help my husband feel better.

"Nikki? What's wrong? Whatever it is, I promise it's OK. Speak to me Honeybee." Softly, lowly as I reach out and caress his face.

"—I...I...gotta pee! B-But.... we just.... sat down and, and I am SO uncomfortable!" My husband sobs.

"Hey, hey listen its ok. It doesn't matter we just sat down, now lets see about getting you to the bathroom and see what we can do to make you more comfortable ok?"

"Ok.... I love you."

"Love you too." With that, I help my crying husband up and to the bathroom...offering a brief explanation in passing, help my husband to the bathroom where he relieves himself, and I help wash his hands and dry his tears as then in a small voice he tells me, he wants to wear one of my sweat shirts and I quickly get him changed and more comfortable making him sigh with relief, I kiss him and I help him once more get settled in at our dinning table, him kissing me with such love and gratitude and I whisper lowly to him that somehow I managed in all this to swipe the house key I'd given Steven, as I'd come to my senses but of COURSE Steven opens his mouth as we begin to eat....

"Damn it Perry, when the HELL did you steal my key?"

"First off, its OUR house key mine and Nikki's...Second, I came to my senses. Third, I like my house the way it is, fourth.... judging by the look on Vince's face...if you don't behave, well guess what you DON'T get from him." Nikki bursts into laughter, as does everyone...Steven pouting.

"Still didn't answer my question...." Steven grumbles, but without heat and before I can say anything else, my husband beats me to it and I beam/smirk with pride at his reply.... After he of course eats a bit.

Nikki's grin is wide as he replies silkily with, "He took alien lessons from Mick and his mate. So, he did in fact Tyler answer your question." There is more laughter and banter, good natured ribbing. I look around and I realize how fucking lucky I am and especially the man that is at my side, that I almost lost twice forever.... that I am now married to and we're expecting our first child. Our bond growing ever deeper, ever stronger......

Dinner passed by in a blur and we all hung out for a bit, Tommy Lee pestering Nikki about the gender of our child until Steven Adler effectively shut him up by yanking him down to his height and kissing him and then fussing at Tommy again that its something special to us, and it's our child...so we tell everyone we want to keep it to ourselves for a while longer or until birth more than likely, Still Tommy DOES plan to buy tons of cute baby stuff as he tells us.... Everyone lingers a while and before I know it, I carry my exhausted husband up to our bedroom and gently set him down on our bed and he's gotten quiet, worrying me.... We'd agreed at some point, Nikki, and I that this was such a special time, so new to us and sacred really sharing that we we're having a girl if you were wondering.... We just wanted it to be known to us until her birth.

"Nikki?" I question worried since Nikki has gotten quiet. Nikki hangs his head, as I sit down beside him and carefully pull him to me, his head resting in the crook of my neck. "Honeybee, tell me what's wrong so I can help you...to make it better." I hear tears and feel the wetness on my neck....as I run my fingers thru my husband's wild mane of hair, trying to comfort him in whatever way I can.

"I...I...just..." Nikki begins quietly and tearfully before continuing, "—we're like one big family now, ya know? Never had that before...but really, I just feel like a burden on everyone right now. Especially you Joe....now I know that's NOT true, and I feel better mentally than I have in SO long....and I don't know what you SEE in me sometimes, how you can love me after everything I did to you but then I remember....you SEE me, that your heart is mine...and that you fought for me." Gently I tilt Nikki's chin up, making him look at me.

"I know baby, God I know.... I've never had a big family before, something I have always wanted. you've NEVER ever been a burden, especially now. We've got your back, me? I've got you, YOU. ALL of you. You've come so far baby, so damn far and I am fucking proud of you, to call myself yours. I will always fight for you and our daughter, that's a promise. And for the record, I see in you the other half of my soul and it took me far too long to see that." With that I can't help but claim Nikki's lips, slowly sweetly until we part for breath. "Now let's see about getting you comfortable, so...how about I run you a bath? A massage perhaps....and, we can talk about what we want for Josephine's nursery as well as plan ideas for that picnic date you asked for."

"Sounds good to me Jo-Jo Bear, massage first."

"Your wish is my command Honeybee." I help Nikki carefully lay back/get him propped up in bed, tenderly massaging him his groans going from pained to relieved and afterwards, he dozes off as I run his bath with his favorite scent: lavender and I re-enter the bedroom to find my husband awake, caressing his swollen stomach speaking to our daughter and the sight takes my breath away...

"I love feeling you move sweetheart.... I feel how much you love me, and you know something? Neither of us would be here without daddy. Cause he saved my life when all hoped seemed lost.... He came, he didn't give up until I was in his arms again. So, you are getting one hell of a father and he and I both love you sweet girl, love you so much." Nikki looks up, our gazes locked, and no words are needed, you can feel the love...the emotion between us.

See what I meant by a memorable day a bit ago? Each day with Nikki is memorable, that has never changed because it's HIM that I wake up with, the first one I see before I sleep and when I wake.

But ah yes, that June night...the start of summer and so much more. I did help Nikki with his bath that night, and we talked about what we wanted in Josephine's nursery and I was determined to truly make it special and I had some surprises of my own planed for it and my husband and our picnic date, more specifically a beach picnic date at a place Nikki requested we go, a private spot in Malibu, him having declared to me, "This is a place that...well you're the only one to ever be told, a place that I've come to find peace...to write, to draw and I wanted to share it with you, only you."

So, the date is for next time, and a few days will have passed. One more thing: it is after this date that I would begin work on Josephine's nursery....

A/N: Bonding, tender moments, and a taste of things to come. Stay tuned for the next chapter.