Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 26: A Visit with my Heart Part 2

We've just entered the bathroom, Nikki still in my hold him and I kissing and gripping wherever we can reach.... moaning loudly. And the sight of Nikki beginning to come undone, GETS to me and the bathroom and I get hotter. We part reluctantly for breath, Nikki's eyes glowing.... his skin flushed, just the lightest sheen of sweat and without giving me anytime to form ANY kind of words, not that I give a shit right now, Nikki is on his knees before me teasing me, slowly placing kisses on the inside of my thighs, avoiding the most sexual part of me.

"NIKKI...." I breathe and moan, my Boston based accent becoming more prominent, my hands going to his hair and pulling.... him loudly moaning, the sound echoing, so I do it again which only makes Nikki moan louder before I can't take it anymore, "---Honeybee.... I need you NOW." I take Nikki by surprise, scooping him up...the delicious friction making both of us shudder, his legs wrapping around my waist as I somehow manage to get the shower started and I prep him, bracing him against the shower wall and time stops for a moment as we gaze at one another....

"I-I love you..." Nikki breathes heavily.

"Love you too....so much." And with that gaze locked, I at last with a little maneuvering, enter him and I forget how to breathe....

Nikki moans broken syllables of my name, desperately pulling at my hair...both of us getting wet, and ready very much so ready to fall over the edge together. I withdraw a moment, Nikki's walls desperate to keep me in before slamming back in eliciting a high-pitched wail/moan from my lover as I begin thrusting, literally driving him up the shower wall in the most pleasurable of ways. Both of us kissing, reaching wherever we can.... This goes on for quite a while, and Nikki begs all the while for harder and of course I am more than willing to oblige my lover.

I am close to the edge, I know Nikki is...what really sends me over the edge is Nikki fondling me, his hands working their magic...magic I have very much missed and screaming Nikki's name, I begin filling him.... him coming along with me....and time stops, everything taking on a surreal quality. But I get the feeling (Knowing) this is far from over. I ride Nikki down and after a time, reluctantly pull out of Nikki and set him on his feet, holding him tightly to me....and I go back to the night of our first time, Nikki with his head resting in the crook of my neck. Both of us panting, trying to for the moment catch our breath. The point is, I love the feel of him...how right he fits with me, I just love HIM.

I barely register the water is lukewarm, my eyes are closed, and I find tears streaming down my face, mixing with the water....and Nikki is in much the same state, we simply hold each other.... We don't need words.

"I...I...that was...holy shit...." Nikki says after a few minutes, and I find myself looking into his eyes, eyes that I love so very much. "---I missed you, this feeling. You...You worshipped me, it felt.... i felt so much." I get Nikki's true meaning, for I feel the same.

"I hear you Honeybee...I can't tell you how much I missed this, US. Together as one. You are the only one..." My voice cracks, "I've ever felt this way with, I am addicted to YOU Nikki. I love you....and I need you.... god, baby I need you."

Nikki and I come together in a slow and sweet kiss and our foreheads rest each other afterwards before Nikki replies with, "Jo-Jo Bear.... I need you too...baby I need you." .....

As you know, this is when Nikki would fall pregnant with our first child and needless to say after he'd uttered these words, we had sex....no made love once again, this time slower...sweeter, but just as passionate and powerful and where you will next find us, is basking once more in the afterglow or pillow talk if you will, legs entwined together, Nikki in my arms where he belonged...where he is still today. Ah, yeah...one more thing: Obviously Mick stayed with Brad else where in the facility that night...he knew, everyone did really.

"Things are really about to get fuckin' crazy.... After rehab, next month we start recording Dr. Feelgood. I feel its gonna be a huge hit, but they want us to record in Canada. And then Aerosmith is gonna record.... i just.... it's a lot." Nikki remarks, tone drenched in worry, and I can tell he's getting overwhelmed.

"I know Nikki, I know.... but remember, YOU come first before all else. Yeah, the music means a lot to me...but you Honeybee mean more...." I try and soothe Nikki and myself really. "---And I am so damn proud of you Nikki, you got this...we got this."

"Joe, you're right.... but I..." Nikki gets choked and starts sobbing, "We're not recording together this time, we keep...being kept apart. I know you don't want it, and, and...." Nikki breaking down, makes me break down and breaks my heart.

"Look at me..." Nikki does so, eyes filled with tears. "I SWEAR to you we tried to get our management to get us to record in the same studio with you guys. When we threatened to walk, they gave in as far as we'll all be allowed to see you guys. I WILL SEE YOU as much as you or I want.... we don't start recording till after you get settled in Canada, we won't take long I promise you Nikki. I am coming WITH you to get you settled in."

"R-Really?" Nikki sniffles, as I gently wipe away his tears.

"No lie baby, no lie."

"I love you Joe, we can weather this storm.... We can get through this together. I feel better now."

"I love you more Nikki, and we can baby...we can. Now let's get some rest ok?"

"Ok Jo-Jo bear. Love you." Nikki drifts off to sleep, as I stay awake awhile longer till finally, I join him in slumber....

Little did I know that Nikki had already become pregnant as I had said. Signs would begin to show around the time I went with Nikki to get him settled in along with the rest of Mӧtley. I had no clue what it meant, him being pale...looking terrified and all. I KNEW of course he was already starting to not act like himself. Part of me had thought it was the prospect of us having to be apart for a brief time once again and it was at least a little, but it wasn't the MAIN thing. I just tried to be there for him in any way...

Still, it killed he and I, to be apart even though we'd both fought that as much as we could. Nights without one another, except for when I was getting him settled in an apartment the record company provided in Canada. Still, it wasn't easy. My every thought was with him, my heart was with him and within him.

I remember getting him settled and sadly having to go, I wouldn't be gone long but it was enough to kill me and believe me you, Once getting back to the states Aerosmith were especially motivated to record, which we ended up getting done before Mӧtley finished theirs or in other words: record time.

One more thing before i let you go for now: As i had learned and was learning then, Nikki and as it turns out our child came first before all else......

A/N: Nikki and Joe are gonna be parents, new albums coming for both bands and more. Stay tuned for the next chapter!