Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 94: Being Home Never Felt so GOOD Part 1(Nikki-Perry Sixx)

Home, God.... I'd NEVER been gladder than when my husband came home from that tour in '94'! I missed Joe so damn bad, there are not enough words to describe just HOW badly I missed him. I struggled, I struggled really my whole pregnancy with triplets.... Still, you get me, the only things that could calm me down were Joe's sweatshirts and Joe himself. And what really made me struggle more was guilt, I NEVER should have tried to drive Josephine to school when I was in my third month still. I really was already then too big to be behind the wheel with my ever-growing belly, I drove practically in the back seat I can tell you that. It scared me having cramps, that started right after Josephine entered her school......and I remember then thinking Joe would be pissed, he wasn't but he did remind me that I needed to be careful and not just for my sake. Part of my point here is I got into my head again, my hormones didn't help at ALL, but I had my Jo-Jo Bear. So, ah yes, to get back to being HOME and my husband being home, he got home in time for Amara's 2nd birthday on September 3, 1994, and where you will find me is with my oldest girls in the kitchen and you will see......

"Easy.... now, I know you three are excited because daddy is coming home." I place a hand on my swollen stomach and the babies are moving very eagerly, but it's uncomfortable, VERY uncomfortable and I am exhausted, I am sore as fuck and I am currently fixing dinner, and my oldest daughters are fussing over me, especially now as I burst into tears.

"Mommy, mommy its k.... ew need west and no feet.... daddy Tay'." Amara fusses, her expression pure Joe, making me wish he was here NOW.

"Mommy, I help you sit down, and fix dinner and I know daddy help too, when he gets home." My little clone as Joe says, more worried about me then herself. Always doing what she can to help even without being asked and too if I know her, she will do so to the point of exhaustion. I am proud of her, don't get me wrong but I should be taking care of HER.

It takes me some moments to tearfully reply to both, sighing heavily. "That's sweet honey, both of you are so sweet. You should be a KID and I.... i should take care of YOU, you shouldn't neglect yourself...." I cry even more so, "L-Like I feel like I'm doing. You're both right.... I...I... just really wanted to make daddy's home coming to be special and then there's that surprise with the genders.... i don't know, none of us do, so I had them put them in that envelope so...so we could do it together."

Delicious aromas, permeate the air...the scent of garlic, rosemary and baked chicken......artichokes roasted, bread....been craving garlic especially bad. But all I NEED is Joe....my head isn't good right now and THAT isn't good for the babies nor my girls.....and I hear a new noise now, the sounds of excitement...the door opening and that oh so sexy as fuck Boston based accent sounding out and I don't hear laughter, I hear the murmur of concern and the next thing I know.....

Those arms I know so well, wrapping around me as best they can.... i hang my head, feeling like I am ruining my husband's home coming yet he is beginning to calm me and our unborn babies.... slowly, but surely and still I cry while hanging my head until a gentle caress of my face and a beloved hand tilts my chin up and I get lost in his eyes...

"Nikki...." He breathes very much concerned about me, "---The girls told me how upset and sad you've been, that you are. I can see in your eyes that you feel like you're ruining my homecoming, you are NOT cause its YOU and our children I am coming home to, there Ain't nothing better and I mean nothing."

"My head...." I whisper.

"Get out of your head baby, I've got you." He whispers, "Now I am gonna get you off your feet, see about getting you less sore and I'll finish up with dinner....it don't matter I just got home..." He adds on, as he knows I am about to protest, or I was.

"I just...wanted to m-make things special.... i had a s-surprise and I just want our daughters to be kids, I should take care of them!" I wail, triplets squirming about in protest.... a gentle hand on my swollen stomach, carefully rubbing it, once more calming me and them.

"Nikki." Firmly, before softening his tone, "You ARE making things special just by being married to me, giving me children.... loving me and you do take care of our girls and our triplets but baby I know you, you need.... we both do really to take care of each other." I whisper an 'ok' to my husband....my Joe and I then feel his lips on my own and I am lost...and found, he is grounding me.... giving me strength.

Joe is very much true to his words, quickly changing into more comfortable clothes, finishing up dinner, massaging me....giving me, our triplets and our girls lots of love and affection and next thing I know, I find myself....all of us at the table, Joe having gotten me settled first and we talk, Joe making sure as we eat to touch some part of me and truly I don't know what I would do without him....

Joe praises my cooking, making me blush.... oh, he KNOWS the effect he has on me and oh believe me you, I know what will at some point follow. What really makes me melt is he makes sure to touch some part of me, never letting me go and time rushes by yet lasts forever, and I find myself on the couch.... propped up, more massaging and Joe kissing me before rubbing my swollen stomach, the babies moving at his touch and Josephine and Amara close to us....

"This.... right here, there is no where in the world I would rather be." Here I catch Joe's gaze, "Do you feel at least a little better Nikki?"

"Yes.... I do, I feel so much better with you here.... i just wish I could get out of my head and quit feeling guilty about what I did last month.... i was.... too BIG to be driving yet I did it anyway.... i NEVER meant to..." Beginning to get upset again.

"Nikki, listen to me. Should you have driven? No. and I KNOW Honeybee you never meant for you to have cramps, or to harm the triplets...I can see you feel that. Baby, I know it's hard and well really, I can only imagine how hard it is for you right now not being able to do things like you did. The point is, Nikki, I've got you.... We've got this and I love you so much, so much. I---" Joe freezes and so do I as we share a look our eyes wide, "---It feels like, I think.... oh NIKKI, the triplets are kicking!" My hand joins with his and a series of thumps are felt now all over my stomach, "—This is magical, and I get to feel them move AND kick? Man!" in awe, in tears and God so much love.

Josephine and Amara soon eagerly feel....and after a bit, I remember....

"Joe? The surprise I told you about.... well, I'd went to the doctor's this morning and I wanted us to do this together, give you the honors of telling us the triplets' genders. I put them in an envelope, and I haven't seen them, but I figured this would be a special surprise."

"I would LOVE that." Joe whispers kissing me tearfully before turning to both Amara and Josephine, "What do you girls think? You ready to find out if you're getting brothers or sisters?"

"Pease daddy?!" Amara begins, green eyes lit...my eyes lit with anticipation.

"I am ready daddy, ready.... been waiting forever!" Josephine exclaims, as we all share a laugh together.

Welcome Home Jo-Jo Bear, welcome home and home never felt so good as when I am with you and our children, all five of them....

A/N: Please forgive me for the cliffhanger, I promise in the next chapter we will find out the genders of the Perry Triplets! Stay tuned for more!