Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 90: Moments that Last Forever Part 3

That first night home with the girls, the first day.... god, I could never forget it. Although, I felt the echoes of my husband everywhere and felt his heart linked with mine.... god, did I fucking miss the FEEL of him lying there beside me in the dark. I wasn't alone, not truly, and neither was he. It was so sweet of my oldest daughters to want to stay with me, it really helped me. Until Nikki's late night phone call, I of course watched over my sleeping little girls: Josephine and Amara but I ALSO worked more on what would become Aerosmith's First #1 single 'I don't Wanna Miss a Thing'. Nikki was very much on my mind, he always is and where you find me is on the chase lounge in the bedroom I share with my husband, writing lyrics....

If you happen to be wondering about Johnny Depp, or Johnny-Cooper Depp (spoiler alert) and what happened after Josephine's kidnapping....of course he became a family friend, hell he became FAMILY....however, filming another movie he was working on when 94' started, an abusive ex stalking him and drugs sadly kept him away from us....However, Nikki and I did whatever we could to try and help in any way, because that was US at one point in time....my husband and I knew what abuse, and drugs and extreme stress did. Now, 94' wasn't ALL bad for Johnny for fate would come to strike in the form of Alice Cooper, whom Steven Adler-Lee would produce for AND well I won't go into too much more detail, but fate would strike, and Johnny would be rescued by Alice at some point here in our story....I won't say when just YET. 

"---Even the sweetest dream would never do, cause I'd still miss you baby.... every moment I spend with you is a moment.... i treasure...." I murmur my eyes scanning over lyrics for an Aerosmith song that is for my MUSE, my lover...my everything: Nikki and I vaguely realize it getting late or starting too.... closing my lyric book now, I look over to see two precious little girls fast asleep......

I don't know what I would do with out my children, my girls and my unborn......this is one of my greatest dreams, and I am living it. I can NEVER express what it means to me to be a father, to give my children the life.... a better life than I ever had, and I know my husband feels much the same way. And even though, I feel him with me.... god, do I really miss him right now....

The phone rings and I KNOW.... Thankfully the girls stir slightly but roll over and go back to sleep and I answer quickly, feeling tears and sitting bonelessly back on the lounge.

"Hey Jo-Jo Bear, I didn't wake you did I or the girls?" Nikki's tired voice sounds through the phone and despite how tired he is, it's the most beautiful voice in the world, because it's HIM. and now the tears fall freely.

"N-Nikki, no you didn't wake me or them.... They stirred but rolled right back over. I-I told you anytime you want me, need me I am there.... baby, it's SO good to hear your voice." Softly as I can since the girls are asleep, my voice a tearful whisper.

"Joe don't cry.... god baby, don't cry....it makes ME cry." Nikki says tearfully, making me feel guilty....

"Baby I..."

"Shh...Shh I know. It's OK, more t-than...." Nikki soothes me before adding on, "—Joe I feel the same way. Even though I feel you with me and I KNOW I have you as you do me.... i really fucking miss you, you're touches.... everything. Talk to me babe, always even when it hurts....and ya know, YOU taught me that."

"You really ARE made for me and yeah...." I sigh, "It hurts.... I see and feel echoes of you everywhere. I mean, I cried when we first got home.... but you know something? Amara said kind of what you said, don't cry.... The girls helped. And babe? Josephine is you made over, she reminded me how much you loved us all and this is hard, but we can do this. She grounded me, so much like you Honeybee."

"As you are made for me Jo-Jo Bear and we have the best, most amazing children and now we'll have three more little angels......Its hard to believe there was a time not so long ago, that neither of us thought we'd make any kind of parent and look where we are now. Its, Amazing." Nikki replies, beginning to calm and very much moved. "—tell me about the evening the 3 of you had, you did get rest, I hope? And did I mention how very much I love you?"

I chuckle fondly albeit quietly, the girls meanwhile are still very much asleep, and I reply with, "I love you more." I counter, "—I sorted my laundry, looked after the girls. Nikki, the house is spotless.... Your drummer, I mean damn went all out. But anyway, He'd fixed a Greek lasagna and a salad, I just had to reheat the lasagna. Tommy is a good cook, but Josephine said it was good but mine was better and not to tell 'Uncle Tommy." I snicker, "I said I would let you tell him my lasagna was better."

Nikki laughs, "Sounds like something I'd say! I will tell him, all right." Nikki collects himself before asking, "So what ELSE did you three get into?"

"Amara made a huge mess and so she got a bath, Josephine got one and somehow, I did all this and once everyone was all clean, a Disney movie before bed and I sang them to sleep. They both insisted on staying with me in our bed."

"I love those messes...." Nikki sighs, "Sounds like a good evening though and if I know the three of you, you talked about me."

"Me too and we did.... now, how ARE you babe? I should let you go; I can hear how tired you are Nikki...."

"Don't let me go Jo-Jo Bear."

"Never." I reply fiercely, before softening my tone. "You sleep any? How's the morning sickness? About the same?" Concerned. 

"I slept, some and woke up and got sick and fuck I couldn't go back to sleep so I watched TV, but yeah morning sickness is about the same or well when I called to tell our daughters goodnight, I was really nauseas but it actually...THANKFULLY helped talking to them and I fell back asleep for a bit longer."

"I am so proud of you Nikki, if I haven't told you that. This is so hard, especially on you and you're doing it anyway. You're amazing, I really.... really mean that." I started tearing up again.

"I wouldn't do this for anyone but you Anthony Joseph Perry and you don't truly know how much it means for you to say that." Nikki replies huskily. We chat for a bit more, telling each other how much we love one another and that we will see each other in our dreams tonight until we see each other in person tomorrow......

A brief bathroom trip and at this moment I find myself in bed, my daughters cuddling closer to me.... making my heart melt, grounding me like their beyond amazing mother and whom I will feel and see in my dreams very shortly, still the sweetest dream would never do....

A/N: Part 3 done, and I hope you enjoyed a taste of things to come at the beginning of the chapter and enjoyed it overall. More to come soon!