Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 89: Moments that Last Forever Part 2

So many kisses, so many hugs before leaving the hospital and such LOVE. I think of this in part at least, as I am learning.... always learning and evolving as I have always told Nikki. He was right, he was right...he IS. Now, Now I am home with my daughters: Josephine and Amara and I see and FEEL echoes of Nikki everywhere. It is hitting me hard, but then I know he is with me always especially in this moment, having just walked up to the door, bags at my feet.... Amara on my hip and Josephine at my side....and I......

"Daddy k? Don' cwy......" Amara's concerned little voice breaks me out of my reverie as I look down into those eyes, those green eyes so like Nikki's and then my gaze lands on Josephine who wraps her little arms around my waist, and I realize my face is wet....

"Daddy member' what momma said? And you say momma? It's ok, mommy loves you and us, lots and we be ok. It hard but can do this." Josephine says her words are a reminder of mine and my beloved's words and she is SO very right and her words go to show that Nikki and I are raising her right. She's just like Nikki, grounding me, showing me.... loving me and I swear though she looks like us both, as she is starting to get older, I feel she will look more and take more and more after Nikki.

"You're right sweetheart and thank you so much to you and your sister......now let's get us inside and resting and all, ok? And remember how much I love you both and your unborn siblings and how I love mommy for giving me such amazing children." My girls tell me how much they love me, and we soon head inside....me looking after them as I quickly get my bags and laundry sorted and once that is done, I look around (holding my daughters' hands) realizing:

The house looks like it's been cleaned recently, very recently and now I and my daughters walk towards the kitchen, and I realize it too looks pristine and I......

Brief interjection, I did somewhere in laundry sorting etc..... change into more comfortable clothes....

"Daddy, look! There is a note on counter." Josephine points out as I catch sight of what she's talking about and as I pick it up and read it, Josephine and Amara both right with me, I find myself blown away.

Joe,

Stevie and I wanted to help you and Nikki both out. So, we got everything under the sun food wise. I mean anything you; your girls or Nikki could need. Also, I put some of my boundless energy to use and cleaned your house. You've been on the road and not only that, you and Nikki especially are dealing with a lot right now. It's an amazing, exciting and scary time.... everything all at once.

Anyway, we figured it's the least we could do. Oh! Before I forget Mick and Vince helped with some things too, like with Josephine and Amara.... ya know babysitting and all.

Take Care,

Tommy Lee

P.S. If you need ANYTHING i.e. to talk, food, help with the girls just let me know.

"Wow...wow...." I murmur stunned, unable to say much more and yet so very moved.

"Uncle Tommy sisted' (Insisted) help daddy, surprise!" Josephine exclaims, grinning, effectively breaking me out of my stupor.

"You knew sweetheart?"

"Yeah, super hard not to tell." Is her reply.

"I should.... pay them back, I know that had to be a lot of..."

"Uncle Tommy also said you would say that." Josephine cuts me off in explaining. "Mommy doesn't know yet." She adds. Quickly, minding the girls I call Tommy who tells me that Stevie is sleeping, inquires after Nikki and the girls and at some point, I attempt to tell him that I will pay him and Adler back, but I give in and tell him I can't thank him and Stevie enough......

That done, I am wiping away tears, realizing that:

Josephine taking care of her sister, without being asked.... the two of them so close and God, does it make me proud of Josephine not that I am not proud of both of my now oldest children.... Still, Josephine is taking after Nikki more and more each day and I love that so much. Nikki, oh Nikki....my precious Honeybee I KNOW you too feel the same way and our daughters will make such amazing big sisters.

I find another note on the fridge, Tommy telling me he made a Greek Style lasagna and a Greek Salad with Feta....and all I need to do is reheat the lasagna, which I do and while it reheats in the oven I take care of my daughters...there is such laughter, such love and we talk of Nikki and the triplets, our worries, our fears, our joy and I feel Nikki is very much with us.

Once the lasagna is heated up, I serve the girls child sized portions with the salad before serving myself and help Amara eat hers and while eating, Josephine says making me laugh....

"Don't tell Uncle Tommy, daddy but I love your lasagna more. His good, yours better!"

"I won't tell him, I promise.... I'll let mommy tell him." I tease, she smirks.

"Daddy!" Amara giggles.

Another round of laughter, but really Tommy is a good cook and its only natural my children would be partial after all.....Soon dinner is consumed, Amara still making a huge mess and so quickly as I can, I clean up and store the food before scooping up one very messy little girl....Josephine following, my heart melting as I head upstairs and bathe Amara and too Josephine gets her a bath and at last my self-included, everyone is clean and in comfy pajamas. Both girls insist on Disney before bed, so we watch a Disney movie cuddling together......

Next thing I know is it's almost their bedtime and the phone rings and I know: NIKKI.

"Nikki! I knew it was you. Are you ok? I've, I've really missed you...and I..." I ramble, trying to calm myself.

"Joe, I'm ok as can be, and I've missed you too. You and the girls, have you been relaxing? I've been worried about you." Nikki answers and immediately, I CALM hearing his voice and now am holding back tears.

"Y-Yeah, we've been relaxing. There's been a lot of laughter, some tears I ain't gonna lie, and your drummer put his 'live wire' self to use as you'd say and cleaned our house and he and Popcorn took it upon themselves to buy a ton of groceries and all."

"Sounds like Tommy.... we really do have the best family, and ya know I felt like I was with you, Amara and Josephine, I really did." Those words, right there? Nikki truly IS my other half.

"Yeah, it does." I laugh before my tone shifts to tender, "I love you so much.... I love the babies and our girls and speaking of our girls.... they'd love to say good night to mommy before they go to bed."

"I love you too Joe, more than you could ever truly know and I would LOVE that. that's why I called..." Nikki I can tell is crying, not that I blame him for so am I. The phone is put on speaker, and Josephine and Amara talk to Nikki telling my husband how much they love him, how they hope he feels better and how they can't wait to see him tomorrow.......

Once I take the phone back and kisses are given thru the phone, Nikki tells me he wants to call me later and I tell him, he can call me.... anywhere, any time and I will be THERE.

"Ok, let's get you two to bed, ok?" Noting Josephine and Amara are both struggling to stay awake.

"D-Daddy, we stay with you please?" Josephine asks sleepily.

"Course you can." I tell her softly, carefully I tuck her in bed along with Amara and of course, make sure they have their stuffed bears they'd gotten for Christmas, and I sing them to sleep.

Josephine and Amara, two sleeping angels and now I will have three more precious angels.... three more angels, whom I already love so very much. Nikki, somehow, I know you can hear/feel me.... I've got you, I've got you Honeybee and all our children, ALWAYS.

A/N: Next is part 3 and Nikki and Joe's phone call, more to come and I am so excited for it all.