Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 58: A Perry Family Christmas Part 3

I remember very well that Christmas we spent in Boston, Christmas 89 to New Years 1990, truly among my most treasured memories. And speaking of Boston and Christmas, it became a tradition for my family and I and eventually Nikki and I would move there when all our children were grown. Now back to our Perry Family Christmas tales: each day was magical, making new and precious memories and the days they rushed by, yet at the same time lasted forever in the best of ways. The days after December 12, were so damn special and I could never forget Nikki, myself and Josephine all bundled and Josephine and Nikki having their first ever experiences playing in the snow and I took so many pictures with my husband's camera....and too we spent our days talking to family, preparing for Christmas and just being together.

Then Came December 24, 1989, aka Christmas Eve. Christmas presents all piled under the tree, hanging stockings above the fireplace with Josephine, cookies and Cocoa, our Christmas dinner pre-prepared and watching Christmas movies. And we got more snow for our Christmas.....we'd had a hard time getting Josephine to sleep that night, not that I nor my husband could blame her, we too were excited and once we did finally get her to sleep....Nikki gave me a Christmas present in the form of him wearing naughty Christmas lingerie and that led to you guessed it...and a hot and merry Christmas indeed!

Now you will find us is on Christmas morning and my husband and I share kisses and quiet moments before Josephine wakes up.

Nikki and I are trading kisses, content just to be with one another this morning...we're both in pajamas amazingly especially after our private time last night, Josephine was checked on not long ago and is still asleep.

"That was one hell of a Christmas present you got me last night." I can't help but smirk, Nikki claims my lips once more nipping them.

"Think that was something? Just wait until later." Nikki's smirk matches my own before his look and tone turns tender, "Joe.... I think of that Christmas we'd been reunited right after my overdose all the time; I'd felt then that you shouldn't have had to spend Christmas in the hospital, well I felt that at least in part. But the thing is YOU were my greatest gift, you saved my life and by my side you were after all I'd put you there, after all we'd both been thru and its fucking strange it's only been 2 years. And every Christmas since then has only gotten better, really for me its like Christmas everyday with you and now we get to share that with our daughter. I love you Joe, so much." Nikki is now in tears as am I.

"I think of it too baby...." My voice cracks with pure emotion, "If I hadn't have gotten there when I did, but the point is I DID and I could argue and do that YOU are my greatest gift, but Nikki you are so damn right about it all babe." I pull him to me, kissing him deeply us just feeling one another until we part for breath and about the time, we do we hear over the baby monitor....

"Mama, daddy Kissmas, it Kissmas and no' lotsa no'!"

Nikki and I share a look, smiling at one another chuckling before we quickly arrive in our daughter's room finding Josephine bouncing up and down in her crib, excited making grabby hands and Nikki and I scoop her up, getting in those precious little butterfly kisses and wishing one another Merry Christmas before she declares she needs to use the potty, and use it she does...cleaning of course her tiny little hands first and as we make our way downstairs, she wants me to carry her, Nikki close at my side.

"So cited' Kissmas! Peasants?" Excited and hopeful both.

"You wanna open presents first?" Nikki asks her. An excited little nod, "What do you think Joe?"

"I think that sounds perfect, presents first then food."

Soon we're downstairs, and as soon as we are.... Josephine wants down and runs to the Christmas tree, eagerly sitting down before it. My husband and I quickly joined her, and it was decided to open Josephine's presents first.

Nikki hands her something wrapped and what would appear to be misshapen and it's something that I had made for her, something special and Nikki helps her open it to find: A stuffed bee, made to look just like the Christmas ornament I had made for our tree. Her little green eyes so like my husband's go wide...

"Daddy had this made for you, a bee for my precious little bee. What do you think sweet girl?" I asked her, her cuddled against Nikki.

She clutches the stuffed bee to her little chest and says, "I wuv its daddy, tank ew!"

"Your welcome Josephine."

More gifts for Josephine follow which include toys, portraits Nikki had made with her collection of stuffed toys, clothes, and her very own copies of 'permanent vacation' and 'Dr. Feelgood' among other things and she ended up falling asleep clutching her new 'bee-bee' as she named it, curled up in Nikki's lap.

"Worn out already. "Nikki whispers, running his fingers through her hair. He looks up tears in his eyes, "I didn't need to take pictures.... because I have them in my head, in my heart and I will never forget these precious moments. It's her first true Christmas, it's the most beautiful thing Joe."

"It is babe, it is. I love her and you are so much. "I whisper, leaning in carefully to kiss him, and I feel Nikki smile into it making my heartbeat fast....

After some moments, we get off the floor....me taking a still sleeping Josephine still clutching her 'bee-bee' and we put her in a baby bed we have downstairs, that fits her comfortably and after making sure she is safe and snug....

We linger watching over her, me wrapping my arms around Nikki from behind him leaning into me....

"I can't wait for the day we add to our family, making new memories like this on Christmas and really every day." Nikki says softly.

"Me either honeybee, it will happen....it DOES and again it will.... now, what do you say you and I open our presents?" Nikki turns in my hold, reaching up to caress my face with one of his hands, which I lovingly hold.

"Jo-Jo Bear I say that sounds good to me, especially cause its with you. But first, I need a kiss and I wanted to say if I haven't already, thank you babe for making this such an amazing Christmas. I love you."

"You have said it Nikki, it's in your eyes.... your smile, I see it and feel it. I'd do anything for you, ANYTHING. I love you so much, it hurts...." I lean in and capture his lips, pulling him to me deepening our kiss....and we kiss until the need for air wins out. "Merry Christmas Honeybee."

"Merry Christmas Jo-Jo Bear."

Nikki and I, we don't always need words to tell how the other feels. We both KNOW, its strange to us after all these years there was a time where we didn't SEE or want to....

I will go ahead and tell you, and of course there is more to come in this Christmas of 89 tale...anyway, I will go ahead and tell you that there's a gift, that Nikki had never shared with anyone.... never shared with me before, but then he would tell me he felt ready and we'll you'll see what happens next....

A/N: I couldn't resist and well there will be a part 4 to this, so stay tuned!