Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 70: Where Has the Light Gone? Part 4 (Josephine Nicole Perry/Joe Perry)

I wait a while, feels like forever.... i can't let the mean lady find me, I must keep going, I must run.... Maybe, if find Rainbow I will feel better. It's cold, dark and I hear weird noises and so scared the mean lady will find me. What if mommy and daddy never find me.... I don't feel good, my tummy hurts, my pants wet and everything hurt so much. My ouchies hurt.... but I must run from mean lady.... I must.

I lost, so lost......I walk forever and ever, every noise scares me....and I swear I see mean lady everywhere, I try hide and make sure no one see me, I don't trust strangers and I think about mommy, daddy and our family walks....

"Mommy? Daddy? Why we walk a lot?" I ask, holding daddies' hand. Mommy wheeling sissy in her stroller, me walking between them.

"Daddy started it when we got together, we both love to exercise. But the real reason is, we are TOGETHER. Its calm, its peaceful.... a special time with just us and now we have you and your sister, so family time." Mommy tells me, him smiling down at me.

"Your ma is right." Daddy grins, glancing down at me then mommy and sissy.

"I love walking!" I declare, mommy and daddy chuckle...Amara make happy noises and I happy so happy.......

I start crying again, whimpering.... trying to be quiet, I hear mean lady yell at me in my head, I jump......keep walking, keep.... keep walking.

Daddy, Mommy.... i no sleep, please find me.... i wanna be home, I hope I still special.... i sorry I ruin Christmas, I sorry get lost.... please don't be mad, please. I cry more, I can't see.... can't see, I trip.... ouch, my hands hurt now, and I wish my ouchies get kisses, I wish I play guitar with daddy, and I hear daddy say in my head....

"You're really getting good sweetheart; I am so proud of you." Daddy smiles at me, holding his guitar, I hold mine carefully.... I smile at daddy.

"I love you daddy."

"I love you too sweet bee, remember I'd do anything for you.... anything. it means so much to me to share this with you."

"I good, cause you amazin' daddy!"

Daddy laughs, "It took me a long time to get that way." Daddy then looks serious, "Anything in life is worth fighting for, living for, dying for.... worth loving.... Remember that, Josephine. You are smart, stronger than you know."

I stop, I walk....and walk and walk, stop.... hiding, watching for mean lady, feeling mean lady's hands on me, hearing her in my head yelling at me and calling me names, I feel she get me.... she will hurt me, she already hurt me. I don't know what time it is; I think I am in LA still.... i hope find rainbow, but now.... I see light, something mommy calls dawn.

"Sunrises in LA, nothing like em'.... same goes for sunset.... but sunrises? They mean, a new day.... new hope, they mean LIFE." I think mommy says.

More walking, though it hurts.... forever, and ever. I swear I see mean lady car, and I wish I would have told mommy, told him about my nightmare. But I don't want to hurt mommy, because it was about that mean lady, and she hurt mommy a lot. I don't know the story, but I've heard mommy talk to daddy about it, it brings mommy a lot of what daddy calls 'pain'.

Suddenly I see lots of people, cars.... lots of light, and I get this feeling in my gut as daddy would say. Still, I don't know where I am, but daddy always say to go with gut....and I don't know how much more I can go, how much more walking.... i try so hard for strangers to not see me and then after a while, I see.... a building and a sign....

"R-R-Rainbow.... R-Rainbow.... its.... its....is it real.... i feel gut say...mommy, d-daddy.... i find it, I find special safe place.... but w-will you find me?" I whisper, whimpering and crying once again.... i crawl suddenly around the back of the building, my head hurts.... i feel something that mommy calls 'dizziness'......I really don't feel good!

Daddy, mommy.... i love you, I find rainbow.... i find special place.... i wanna...wanna come home, please....

I feel someone over me, and I get scared....and scream....

"No! Y-You S-Stranger! Mean lady.... mean lady get me!" I try and crawl away but then I hear....

"I promise you; I won't hurt you.... you look like, dear god.... who would do this to a child?" To himself, but now gut tells me he I can trust this...stranger. "Let's get you some help..." This stranger, yells for help...I jump, but he's helping me. "Can you tell me your name love?"

"J-Josephine...N-Nicole.... P-Perry.... mean lady.... D-Deana.... took me...from school, she h-hurt me....and I don't f-feel good.... she hurt me...she...hurt me, and m-my mommy and daddy, I ruin Christmas....and...and...."

"Shh..." I can't see man's face, but I think his eyes wide, "Oh my god...you're Joe Perry and Nikki Perry-Sixx's daughter!" and then, "I can promise you that they've been looking for you, they haven't stopped and you could never ruin anything, I will get you to them and wont let that mean lady get you....my name, is Johnny...Johnny Depp, I promise you little love things will be ok, you'll be ok now...."

I hear noises, other voices.... i jump, I try and fight.... but the kind stranger, Mr. Johnny tells me he wont let them hurt me....and I feel SO sleepy....and I wish mommy and daddy were here, were here....

I think dreaming now, I not sure.... but I see happy things, things I love: my mommy, my daddy and my sissy...Uncle Pink, everyone. I see Mr. Johnny, a kind stranger.... i see family and then I see:

Snow, lots of snow.... It's Christmas time and we are in a place that daddy is from: Boston. Me, daddy, mommy laughing playing in the snow.... Daddy showing me how to make the best snowballs, and mommy teaching me how to throw them and then we go in house for Cocoa and cookies and my favorite fruit raspberries....

And then it gets dark, I am cold.... alone, scared.... a bad dream, a bad dream about a mean lady and then more darkness but I hear the bestest voices in the world! They say to me:

"We love you; we love you.... We've missed you SO much, so much. We will see you soon, we still love you, we never stopped, and we never will. We are SO proud of you Josephine, our sweet bee. You've been so brave, so brave. Soon you'll be in our arms where you belong, we promise, we promise." The voices of my daddy and mommy, I cry because I can't SEE them, because I am so scared and I feel them both hug me, trying to make me feel better. And then everything goes dark....and I cry more....

-Joe Perry POV-

It's the next day, getting to be afternoon....my eyes are swollen from tears, I am exhausted, as is my husband....and my youngest daughter, whom Nikki and I hold tightly to us and suddenly the phone rings....and it gets quiet, I answer both dreading it will be bad news and hoping, hoping its good news....

"Is this Anthony Joseph Perry? Father of Josephine Nicole Perry?"

"Y-Yes.... please.... please tell me...." I trail off desperately, hardly able to breath.

"---Your daughter was found at the Rainbow on Sunset Boulevard and has been taken to the hospital, she was found by a Mr. Johnny Depp, and we've just received word that Deana Feranna was caught and after a stand off with officers, she was shot and is now dead. Please come to the hospital as soon as you can." And the line goes dead, and I turn to my husband in tears, trying to find my voice....us holding one another, holding Amara and I start sobbing, in joy...in relief, in sorrow for what Josephine is suffering and has suffered.

I tell Nikki and the others for everyone is here, "Nikki.... Nikki, she.... has been found!! She made it to Sunset, to the Rainbow......and she's at the hospital. Johnny Depp found her and...Nikki, God.... they told me, Deana is dead.... she finally is dead. Oh Nikki!" I sob into his shoulder, Nikki shaking and sobbing just like me.

"Thank God! Thank God.... oh Joe.... oh Joe.... let's go to her, let's go reunite with our little girl!"

Amara is left with our family, sending Josephine her love, hugs and kissies and Nikki and I rush to our girl, that piece of ourselves we were missing, that our family has been missing Josephine......

A/N: Josephine has been found!! And soon she will reunite with her parents, her family and there is so much more to come!