Might as Well Face it, You're Addicted to Love (Joe Perry/Nikki Sixx)

Chapter 102: Our Girls Are Home Part 2

Nikki and I.... together we've faced the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. There have been always the bitter-sweet, the sweet......the heart break when the other was in pain and the absolute joys. It's been true really since we met and today still. The point is: it was true even more so when Nikki was pregnant with our triplets.... Tony, James and our youngest daughter Frankie. But the pain.... GOD the pain, the fear.... feeling helpless and it wasn't just me but Nikki as well. His nightmares didn't stop sad to say but he told me every day, every day and still does that I was his absolute fucking rock. WE found the joy, FELT IT and that leads us back where I'd left off the last time......

Nikki's smile.... there is NO comparison to its beauty.... the nightmare for now is at bay and now, we are all feeling joy and I now am sharing a look with Nikki, feeling myself smile and the tears come and naturally he KNOWS....

"Josephine, Amara.... daddy and I have something WONDERFUL to tell you." Nikki looks to them and I see the happiness on their little faces and the joy and relief that Nikki is ok now, that their amazing mother is for the moment OK. "—We came up with names for your brothers and sister.... daddy and I wanted to surprise you with them." Josephine and Amara set aside their snacks, Josephine helping Amara who on second glance is done anyway....

My hands resting on Nikki's stomach, feeling my precious angels move as if in anticipation of this moment....

"Oooh...Weawwy?" Amara asks, very much eager to find out.

"Really, little bee." Nikki answers her, eyes glowing.... god, do I love his eyes.

"I am so excited!" Josephine claps her little hands together and Nikki and I look at each other and chuckle before looking back to our oldest children.

"Ok then so....one of your brothers, I wanted to name after Daddy...." Here Nikki's voice grows husky from tears, "---So Anthony Joseph Perry, and we'll call him Tony. I really think it's a WONDERFUL fit. For your other brother, I told daddy I really liked James, and he liked Roman, so James Roman Perry...." Nikki pauses a moment, trembling a little....

"Hey, I've got you Honeybee..." Lowly.

"Thank you, Jo-Jo B-Bear.... I love you."

"I love you too." The girls I can tell are very much concerned, "Mommy's gonna be ok, I promise." I turn to them....

Thankfully and its very much important, I get Nikki calmed and by extension our oldest daughters and the babies housed within my beloved and this gives Nikki strength to continue...

"---Now, your little sister's name.... see, I wanted.... needed to make peace with the past, MY past and the name I was born with, but didn't keep. So, I wanted to name her Frankie, Frankie Chiara Perry. In this, I will make that peace and.... get a new start with her name."

I love all parts of you Nikki, including who you were.... who you ARE, all of it. It's taken me a long time or rather it did to realize that, but once I did....it was YOU. And it always will be....and now, now our youngest daughter will bear the name of your past, of YOU.... god, I am so happy.... despite my worries, my fears....and so damn proud of you....

The girls are thrilled, lots of giggles.... laughter thru the tears too, and they insist on fussing over their mother and my poor Nikki, despite having woken up....is looking tired again......

Before I can say or DO anything, Josephine....my Nikki's clone DOES....

"Mommy, you look sleepy.... you need lots of rest for you and for.... Tony, James and Frankie, ok? I help."

Nikki protests tearfully, "---But...But I wanna spend time with you....and everyone. I-I mean I know...but..."

"Nikki you ARE spending time with everyone. You are HERE. "I remind him, before adding on, "—Sleep babe, I'll take care of everything. Now, what do you need or want before you sleep?" Softly, firmly caressing his face now with Nikki leaning into my touch.

"I need, kisses....and god..." Nikki groans, "To piss....and I really am craving something garlicky....and potatoes with rosemary.... for dinner." Nikki has his eyes closed before opening them once more and gazing into mine.

"You'll never NOT get kisses...." I lean in, breathing these words against his lips before claiming them, Nikki sighing blissfully afterwards, "---And as far as Something with a lot of Garlic.... how about roasted garlic chicken with those potatoes?" A happy nod before his eyes fills with tears...., "Hey lets get you to the bathroom ok and get you some more rest?" I help my husband up, very carefully and naturally Josephine who is minding her sister follow....

Before long, Nikki uses the bathroom......crying all the while, I do whatever I can to make him feel better, and he gets quiet again once I get him settled on the couch worrying me and Nikki's eyes fill with fear.

"I know that look.... you're afraid of seeing that nightmare of yours." Nikki stiffens, gently I caress his face, and I am aware that Josephine is keeping Amara occupied, the two of them playing in the floor, "—Hey, I know.... I know it scares you babe. And I am here to tell you: I've got you. I would NEVER let anything like what happened several years ago happen to you again, I promise you. I will always, always take care of you, save you repeatedly Nikki Perry-Sixx. And I am your husband, proud to be YOURS. You don't have to talk baby; we don't need words so right now just save your strength. Sleep Honeybee, sleep as much as you need. I love you."

Those words, those words of, 'I would never let anything like what happened to you, happen ever again.' would come back to haunt me when Nikki would have our triplets as I have already alluded to. And moreover, it was a promise that fucking hurt because I felt that I broke my promise to him and wish to God that I had been able to keep it. I've learned or did learn what's to come was NOT my fault and circumstances with the birth were beyond mine or Nikki's control.

Nikki did fall asleep once more, he really needed it if you are wondering only moments after my words to him that October day/evening. He was woken only to eat dinner and sadly the nightmares, his nightmares still came.... they came and I wish to God they hadn't come true. Still, those bitter-sweet moments: taking care of my oldest daughters, Josephine demanding to help me cook, Amara being my little taste tester, Josephine helping me check on her mother, to take care of him I still remember so clearly, so clearly even at this moment in time.

A pair of lips now upon my own, me loving the feel.... I KNOW these lips for they belong to my Honeybee and how I FEEL hasn't changed in all the years we've been together.... I clutch at his shoulders, pulling him closer to me NEEDING him, needing my husband of the last 35 years: Nikki-Perry Sixx.

"I remember that pregnancy...." Nikki sighs heavily, tearfully now after our kiss. "—Course they were all memorable, but the triplets. God, that was fucking hard. And I DIED.... i nearly, left you and I SAW...."

I cut Nikki off, my voice choked, "Oh babe, I know.... I know." I managed to get out.

"Still Joe, you saved me.... you didn't give up once more till I was back in your arms, back with our children. It was and will always be YOU."

"I would save you repeatedly Nikki....and as for the pregnancy with Tony, James and Frankie....it would only make our love stronger, and I could only love you even more. I love you Nikki and thank you...THANK YOU Honeybee."

"I'd have gone thru what I went thru for no one else but you Joe, and I'd do it over and over, and besides it was worth it.... more than." I hold Nikki tightly to me, with his head resting in the crook of my neck thanking God we are together......

Now, when you next find me.... well, us, I'll let Nikki take the reins for that one...

A/N: Poor Nikki is very much struggling, but he has Joe...and his children and in the end things will turn out ok. Next chapter is Nikki's POV. Stay tuned for more!