Go live your way Part 2

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Mia talked about the phone call with Mercedes. The reproaches she'd made to Alvaro and the sadness and despair that was in his voice. "I can tell it's breaking him and in the end it's my fault, because I  triggered that by  my appearance at school." she said. "I knew when I wanted the break month ago that he couldn't stand between me and his family, and  that's exactly why I did it. I've been thinking all the time now about what to do."

"And what do you  want to do?" asked Juanma. Mia's eyes filled with tears again. When she didn't say anything, he said, "No Mia, definitely not. He wouldn't get through that now.

"But that would be the best. He can take care of his family completely and is not torn."

"Mia, he needs you. He needs all of us, but he needs you the most now. You have to be strong for him now and we will all get through this together. Cry with  me, cry with Zoe, but please be strong for him  and Above all, do not leave him. As I know Alvaro, similar thoughts run through his head. " He took her in his arms again.

It hurt him to see Mia like that and he could understand her thoughts too.

"Mia, it's difficult for him that is clear, and I think he is gradually processing a lot and Mercedes ... so when I compare her to my mother, I wonder how they can be friends. And it's  for you also very different than for me of course, where I am only outside and so I can say something much easier than you or he. But he stands by you. That's why he goes through it. Because he loves you more than anything else. And that's why you have to stand by him too, Mia. "

Mia nodded. "But it's hard to be rejected like that and to know that somehow he will be rejected too. He wasn't looking forward to going home a bit now in the vacation. And I think he came back changed."

"Changed to you?" "No, not directly. Quieter, more thoughtful."

"He has to deal with it all. But we have to help him. We can't do much, but we can stand by him. And you love him after all, or has something changed."

Mia shook her head. "No, of course not. But I can't stand it like that either."

"But I'm not waking up tomorrow and you're in Spain, am I?" Juanma grinned slightly and Mia even had to laugh. "I'll get us some water, okay?" said Juanma.

Mia took a few deep breaths. When Juanma came back with the water and glasses, she had calmed down a bit. Juanma took her again in his arms. There it was again, the connection between them. How many conversations of this kind had they had, how often had one encouraged, comforted or supported the other? Mia felt protected and safe with Juanma, and he felt the same way. Of course, nothing could beat Alvaro and Juanma got more and more used to talking to Zoe and being more open.

"But I really don't know what to do. I was quite surprised myself that something had developed between Isabel and Ramiro. I'm happy for both of them, but I didn't expect it."

"That's the way things go Mia. You can't control that either. The heart cannot be controlled by reason, only suppressed." After a moment he said, "Actually, we can't really do anything. Mercedes wouldn't take you, Zoe or me seriously if she didn't listen to Lupe and Alvaro. Ramiro fell out of favor too, and my mother tried. When there are  doubts Javier, Ramiro and Mercedes have to clear everything through lawyers. "

"He has the feeling Mercedes is going crazy," said Mia.

"Only now" exclaimed Juanma and he clapped his hand over his mouth. "Sorry, I talked faster than I thought." Mia had to laugh a little.

Juanma then said seriously "Do you think that you can really go crazy with this?, I mean really sick crazy"

Mia thought for a moment, "Sure, it can certainly trigger depression or other mental illnesses. Do you think Mercedes has something like that." "Let's not hope so," said Juanma.

"But do you think she still loves Ramiro? Do you think after all that she or he could go back to what was before" asked Mia.

Juanma thought for a moment. There is no way he could. Not in Ramiro's place anyway. And instead of Mercedes ... it would be too much broken if he were in the situation.

"No, I don't think so. I don't know what's going on in Mercedes' head, but I couldn't."

"Then why is she clinging to it like that, she could start over?"

"Right, but of course it's also difficult to lose everything, or to give up and then just keep going. One can do it, the other can't. She now had a safe, worry-free life. Who knows what's coming."

Mia nodded. "Can you be strong for him?" asked Juanma. "I'm trying," said Mia.

"Mia you are the strongest person in the world. You can do it and we will help you." He took her again in his arms. "Shall we go back to sleep" asked Mia. Juanma nodded. "It will be light again soon," he said with a smile.

They crept quietly into the room and Mia carefully lay down next to Alvaro. Alvaro looked at Juanma and said "Thank you", then took Mia in his arms. Juanma nodded and snuggled up against Zoe