I'm Yours (Sequel to "You're mine")

Chapter 6: I don't understand

Leah's POV

"Thanks for the talk," I said to Charlotte as we got back to the house. "I needed it."

She showed me a small smile. "You're welcome. I'm here for you and Talia, you just have to call me."

I smiled too now. "Thank you."

She nodded before walking to her car. She got in, started the engine, and waved at me before heading off.

I let out a deep breath before looking at the house again. It's weird how a while back, I loved just the sight of this house while nowadays, I got upset.

I walked to the front door and entered the house. I got out of my jacket and looked around. "T?" I went to the living room, the kitchen, upstairs, the bedroom, the bathroom... She was nowhere. I sighed as I realized she once again left me to go to Heather, maybe I wasn't good enough anymore...

I sat down on the couch and did the one thing that calmed me every time: writing. I had just finished up a story about a teenage girl who turned out to be the one true love of a Vampire Superior. I called it Lucky 13. It was an odd idea at first, I had to fine-tune my dream greatly and I believe it turned out fine. People seemed to like it. Sometimes I wish I had the same life as Lily: I'd have a one true love who really only values me, I'd have no worries about a job or school because everything would be already taken care of, I'd have a child with T... I sighed as I realized the life I wanted didn't match my real life at all. Was I still happy here? Was this what I wanted? I didn't know anymore...

"Hey."

I blinked before looking away from my computer screen. "Hey."

T didn't seem happy either. Maybe we were both fooling ourselves here, maybe this wasn't meant to be...

I put my laptop away on the coffee table and sat up, making room for T to sit down, which she did. "Are you happy?" I looked at her.

T didn't look at me, she didn't answer me either. Perhaps, she didn't know anymore either...

I looked in front of me, at nothing in particular. "Maybe..." I sighed. "Maybe we need to go out together," I looked at T. "We could go somewhere fun and spend time together," I showed her a small smile. "What do you think?"

T didn't answer, she kept looking in front of her. I didn't know if she was thinking about what to answer me or if she was molding a difficult topic in her mind.

"T?"

She sighed deeply. "I've thought about what Charlotte and you said," She paused, a bit too long for my comfort. My heart was beating like crazy while she seemed to take her time to say what was on her mind. "I need time."

I slowly nodded even though I didn't really understand what she needed time for.

She looked at me. "For myself."

I raised my eyebrows. "You need to be alone?"

She slowly nodded.

I gulped, I was trying so hard not to get upset. "What do you need time for?"

She looked away again, avoiding eye contact with me. It was clear she was really confused. "I need to be sure about this."

"About what, T?"

She gulped. "Us."

I gulped too now. "Us?" I looked away, trying to process what she was saying, though my hurt feelings prevented me from thinking about my answers. "What's there to think about? We're married, we love each other, we just need to make time for one another."

"It's not that easy, Leah."

"It is," I got up, I couldn't sit down anymore. I was frustrated. "It is that easy!"

T didn't say anything but she shook her head. That gesture, that silent disagreement got to me.

"The only problem we have here is one called Heather."

T looked up at me. "She's my best friend."

"She's a problem, she's been a problem for years now. From the start, she did nothing but hurt us and trying to get in between us. You've assured me back then that she would never succeed, I guess you were wrong."

T frowned, she seemed to get angry as well. "Maybe the problem is that you're not trying to get to know her."

"No," I shook my head. "I know her. She has shown every side of her bad personality."

"She's my friend, how dare you speak of her like that?"

I huffed. "A friend?" I shook my head again. "Friends wouldn't have you go out to midnight on school days, friends wouldn't let you get drunk to the point it'll hurt you, friends wouldn't try to break your marriage apart!"

"She's just making fun with me so that you can study."

"Come on T," I paused a bit. "Do you really believe that?"

T looked away for a bit, crossing her arms in the process. She was clearly angry or frustrated, she was blocking everything I was saying. I couldn't get through to her, and it hurt me immensely.

"Heather has always hated me, I bet she loves what's happening right now."

T looked at me again. "You're wrong."

I let out a huff before shaking my head. I looked at her again. "Since when have you become so naive?"

She frowned even more. "Since when have you become so boring?"

I raised my eyebrows. "Boring? Me?"

"Yes, you. You're no fun. Every time I want to do something with you, you say no."

"Because I'm trying to get through college, for our future!" I looked away. "I don't understand why you don't understand that."

"Students party and play games and whatnot," She said. "I've been in college too, I know what it's like."

"Sure, students do all those things," I looked at her. "But most of them aren't married and trying to succeed fast for the future of that marriage."

T huffed.

I let out a breath and looked away. "Do you even still want us to have a future?" I looked at her. "Do you?"

T looked at me, for the first time we made eye contact. We looked at each other for a while, it almost seemed as if time was frozen. Instead of answering me, T looked down. And I knew enough.

I gulped and walked past her, I went upstairs and cried in bed.