I'm Yours (Sequel to "You're mine")

Chapter 102: Did I forget?

Leah's POV

I smiled at T as I waved her goodbye. I watched the car drive off before going to the center. I entered the building and went straight to the waiting area. It had been a while since I last came here. Eva made the time for me to meet her at her house instead of here, since I was a friend of her wife.

Sometimes I find it odd, how close I became with my therapist. It didn't bother me at all, but sometimes I do wonder about our relationship. I knew a therapist had to have a certain professional distance from their patient. I wondered if Eva was able to do that. She knew me well enough, maybe more so than her other patients...

I sat on a chair and looked around. There were still no magazines in the waiting room, I guess they'd never return since the virus... So I took my phone and wanted to play a game but stopped when I saw Cam's contact detail. It was saved on the main screen, because I used to contact her quite often. I sighed when I thought back at our conversation, 2 weeks ago...

I wondered if I had been too hard. She came with good intentions, it seemed she missed spending time with me. But I was not too fond of the tone of her voice and what she said about Jin. It was just mean. It sounded as if she wanted to hurt me. Since that moment, I hadn't heard from her, at all. Nor from my other friends.

"Leah?"

I looked up and saw Eva smile at me before motioning me to follow her. I got up and went after her. We went all the way to her little office. 

When we both had entered, Eva shut the door before walking to her comfortable seat. She looked at me, her little notepad in hand. She smiled politely at me.

I smiled back before sitting down.

Eva kept looking at me, it seemed she was waiting for me to start, to say something. When nothing came, she tried: "Nothing to say, huh?"

I shrugged.

"I see," She said and got quiet afterwards. She closer her little notepad and put it down on her lap, it seemed she was ending the session really early. But she'd never do that. "I sometimes feel bad too."

I looked at her.

"It's difficult to deal with problems when you don't know what it is you're dealing with."

I slowly nodded.

She slowly smiled. "But it helps to talk."

I let out a breath before nodding. "I saw Cam."

Eva nodded, she still only listened, and her little notepad remained closed.

"It wasn't that nice."

"How so?"

I sighed deeply. "I think she wanted to say she missed spending time with me but," I looked down, fidgeting with my hands. "She insulted my boys."

Eva slowly nodded.

"I told her to leave and I haven't heard from her since," I looked back up at her. "And I don't know whether I should be apologizing or just wait for her to come back."

Eva slowly nodded. "I think you have to ask yourself whether you'd be willing to risk and wait for her to come back," She slowly leaned in closer. "She may be hurt as well and wait for you."

I sighed.

"Sometimes apologizing isn't even necessary," She started. "Sometimes it's all about showing you care rather than saying it."

I looked at her. "I don't know what to do," I sighed again. "It just seems like times flies and I forget," I looked down. "But I don't mean to forget."

"Why don't you start by reaching out and explaining that?"

I looked back at Eva. I thought about it for a bit before looking back down.

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When I got home, I smiled as I heard two tiny boys say: "Mama!" I hurried to the living room and quickly took them in my arms. I hugged them tightly. My boys, the reason I'm alive right now.

After some time, I let them go and smiled at them. "That was nice," I smiled more. "That made me happy."

They smiled at me before looking back at the tv, as they were apparently watching a movie.

I got back up and looked at T, who was seated on the couch, 'watching' the movie too. I leaned in closer, kissing her lips before sitting down next to her.

She smiled at me after the kiss. "How was therapy?" She whispered.

I thought back to the conversation I had with Eva. Eva really tried to help me but it felt complicated to me, like there wasn't an easy solution. "It was alright." I simply replied.

T looked at me for a while, I wondered if she could see I was withholding information, but she nodded and looked back at the tv.

I leaned closer to her and smiled when she wrapped her arm around me, welcoming me in a very nice and comfortable embrace.

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That evening, we had put the boys to bed and were getting ready for bed ourselves. I was brushing my teeth while T was combing her hair. I always thought that was a weird habit of hers. Like your hair is going to get messed up, what's the point of combing it before bed...?

As we both finished, we went back to our bedroom. We got underneath the sheets and let out a breath.

T looked at me, she got on her side and held herself up with one arm supporting her head. "So," She started. "Do you now want to tell me what exactly happened during therapy?"

I knew she could see right through me... I sighed. "I don't know."

"Was Eva not good?"

I looked at T. "No, that's not it," I looked back at the ceiling. I licked my lips. "About 2 weeks ago, Cam was here."

I could see how T was surprised to hear this, as I never told her.

"She wanted us to hang out," I sighed. "I had canceled the meeting because I had to watch the boys."

"Baby, I could've canceled my getaway - "

"That's not it," I looked at her. "I didn't think it was that big of a deal, but Cam apparently thought it was."

T frowned a bit.

"She came here and basically accused me of abandoning her and my friends." I sighed deeply.

"Well, is she right?"

I looked at T briefly before looking back at the ceiling. I thought about it for a bit, as I had done ever since Cam came here. Then I slowly nodded.

"You have to get together with your friends," She leaned closer to me. "I can go out with my friends while you watch the kids, but so can you while I watch the kids."

I looked at her. "I know," I sighed. "I guess I just forgot about them."

T seemed to get upset about it all. "I'm sorry, baby," She laid back down and pulled me in her arms. "It's a lot for you sometimes," She kissed my head, calming me down. "I guess I forget about that too. You're younger, it's different."

I smiled a bit.

"Tomorrow, you'll call Cam. And you arrange something to get out and relax."

I slowly nodded. "I love you, baby."

T pulled back and suddenly, in one swift motion, she got on top of me. She smiled. "I love you too." She leaned in closer, connecting our lips.