Sajak Liar

Why the fuck this is hard?

I look at your eyes and what I see always trigger me to cry, especially in this moment. I saw your hand moved through my eyes and your lips kissed my forehead. "I love you," you said.

I smiled at those lips and kissed it with a lot of meanings. "I don't want to lose you," my mouth moved with a lot of pain inside me.

I am in hell, my mind added, and you are the one that can make it seems like it is not that bad. I know that with you I can be as strong as I want. I know that with you, in the end of the day, I'll be the happiest woman alive. You always makes me alive, sweet, and I always craving for that.

"Don't worry," you still looked at me with those eyes. I always believe it and I know I have to. You prove me with tons of things that people never did just for me.

"Why?" I asked you. Why you fall for this mess? Why you want me to be your pure soul mate until time takes you from this world? What did I do so beautiful and pure until God thinks I deserve you?

"Because you're perfect for me," you answered. I smiled and I know my cheeks will be as red as my hair that you loves the most about my body.

I am thankful. I am thankful that I have you. Yes, life is cruel and I am fucked by it, but you save me. You save me before anybody, even myself, did. I cannot say anything but—

Thank you,
and I love you Devara Rahendra.