From Something To Everything (Bounprem)

157. Outburst

"Hia, didn't you tell me that your Mae used to be very close to you before you got into an accident?" Prem asked softly. "Maybe something happened in that time period that she had to stay away from you. Just like how I am staying away from you now."

Boun was caught off guard by those words.

"She might not have been the best mae one could ask for, but at least don't completely shut her out, Hia. Maybe there are some misunderstandings or something that could be solved if you just talk to her openly." Prem tried to persuade Boun to talk things out with Tessa.

Boun's brows knitted as he remained silent, listening to Prem.

"There is always two sides of a coin, Hia. We just need to put some effort into seeing the other side as well."

"I am just scared Pao." Boun fiddled with his fingers.

"Scared of what Hia?"

"Scared of expectations, Pao." Boun looked down on the fluffy white carpet beneath his legs. "I had stopped expecting anything from my PorMae so many years ago. I had practically stopped expecting anything from anyone other than P' Kao and Ohm until you came along.

Expectations hurt a lot, Pao. When they are not fulfilled by the people you care about, it hurts so damn much."

Boun forcefully rubbed his face. "In these years, I have kept my distance from everyone. No attachments, no expectations, no pain. That was how I managed to survive all this while."

Prem scooted closer to Boun and hugged him. "But life is not about survival, Hia. it is about living it. We can't live with all those walls building around us. They might keep us safe but they also can make us feel isolated and lonely, Hia."

"I am lonely, Pao!" Boun burst out.

"Isn't that what I am here for?" Prem pressed his cheeks against Boun's shoulder blades. "To keep you company?"

"You don't understand, Pao!" Boun was irritated. "You have-"

Boun was once again silenced mid-sentence, this time by a pair of soft lips that pressed against his own.

Prem pulled away licking his lips. "You are right, I don't understand. I don't understand why we are talking about your Mae when you are supposed to fuck me." He glared at Boun.

Boun was bemused for a second seeing Prem losing his temper.

"I didn't wait here all these hours to discuss how you are doing with your Mae. Can't you just take the hint and end the topic when I said that you can sort things out by communicating better?" Prem huffed.

Boun involuntarily gulped in fear.

"And you are complaining that you are lonely!" Prem shot up from the seat, eyeing Boun angrily. "Do you think that you are the only person who feels lonely? I feel lonely too. Are my feelings a joke to you?"

"I didn't mean it like that, Pao." Boun tried to reach out to hold Prem's hand, seeing that the younger was in tears already.

Prem moved away not letting Boun touch him"I have been waiting for you to come over so that we could have some time together in peace. And you! You come here and start telling me that you regret being with me?" He was already feeling vulnerable leaving the party.

The fact that both of them didn't belong to the same tier of people was already eating him up internally. He couldn't help but fear that Boun might not be interested in him anymore. He tried to act all mature and well-sorted. But the truth was quite the opposite.

Boun's simple words were making his insecurities flare up. He didn't want to throw a tantrum at Boun or act clingy with him. But he couldn't help it. His heart was hurting.

"If you really regret being with me, tell me here and now. If you still feel lonely even with me lurching on to you like a parasite, tell me." Prem looked at Boun with tearful eyes. "If you can't see my efforts to keep things together for us or if you no longer find me attractive, then say it to me. SAY IT TO MY FACE DAMN IT!"

Silence engulfed the room.

"P- Pao, babe, I am sorry. I never meant that." Boun stuttered. Fear engulfing his mind.

"It's okay, phi. I can understand. You just have to say a word and we will end this." Prem said in a firm tone.

Boun's heart fell to the pit of his stomach when he heard Prem address him as 'phi' and not 'Hia'.

He hurried stood up and hugged Prem tightly. "No, Pao. I would never say that. I don't want this to end. I was just a bit confused earlier. "

"What was the confusion, phi? " Prem sneered at Boun.

'There he goes again. He called me 'phi' again' Boun tightened his hug. " There's no confusion Pao. No confusion at all. You are right. I have to talk to my Mae and clear things. I promise I will.

I also swear that I have never stopper being attracted to you. I have no intention on cutting ties with you. I swear. "

"Then do you want to do it here or in the guest room? " Prem was still sulking but his temper had gone down.

"Huh? "

"I am asking if you want to do it here or we should go to the guest room? " Prem repeated the question. " Fluke especially told me not to dirty his couch. "

Boun understood what Prem meant. His eyes fell on the pure snow White couch, that was large enough to accommodate their needs. After some consideration, he said "Let's go to the guest room. "

"Good" Prem commented. He too preferred the bed. He needed space for the night.

Prem himself was clueless on why he lost control over his emotions all of a sudden. Anyway, in the end, the mission was a success. He got Boun to agree to talk to Tessa and he was getting laid tonight. He gave himself a mental pat.

Boun kissed Prem hungrily, his hands already exploring the soft, smooth skin beneath the younger's shirt. "Do we have enough supplies? " He asked nibbling onto Prem's lips.

"I got them on the way here. " Prem said proudly, enjoying Boun's touches.

"Great minds do think alike. " Boun complimented sticking his tongue out to lick Prem's earlobes.

"Yeah" Prem giggled, raining kisses along Boun's jawline.

"But somebody seems need some discipling tonight. " Boun groped the full, perky butt with both hands making Prem gasp. "Don't you think so? "

Prem licked his lips in anticipation. He nodded shyly.

Their lips met again. Articles of clothing fell to the ground as they made their way to the guest room.

By the time they reached the room, Prem had nothing on other than the red tie.

"Are you ready to be punished? " Boun whispered to his ears, getting a nod in reply. " Then get on all fours. "