words from a broken soul

Respect

Is it earned or is it given to others
It's a trick question in my view
Because it's simply both earned and given
The question that should be truly asked is
Why and how it's earned or given I was told
To respect my elders load of shit honestly
Because they were what tore my family apart
You suggest I respect someone who broke
My psyche someone who fed me lies for
No reason other than hating my mom you
Say I should respect them because I had
Shelter food and clothes shit meant nothing
I was just a pawn in a game I was unaware of
And you want me to respect that bitch fuck
No respect for her or my sorry excuse of a
Father no I never respected them I feared them
Is it earned or given to others
It's a trick question in my view

I feared those who raised me they thought
It was out of respect but it was "given" from fear
I witnessed so much malice just out of
Pettiness towards one person it's outrageous
Makes me sick to my stomach on how
My uncle came from her or how my grandfather
Could put up with her well he didn't he had
Quite a few secret girlfriends can't blame
Him my uncle had problems true yet he
Was well mannered for the most part yet
His mother was a narcissistic and controlling person
How could he come from her blood I'll never know
So many questions no answers
Yet I do know for me respect is never
Given in my view you earn not by having
More power but by kind actions Julius Caesar
Was respected yet he was still overthrown
Now the question is was he respected for his actions
Or was he respected in fear of his actions
There are many historical figures I can list
Genghis Khan was respected for his leadership
Yet he was feared because of his actions
And those who were smart as he invaded
Gave him respect out of fear those who didn't
Well they were massacred those who weren't
He used as human shields for his troops
Is it earned or given to others
In my view it's a trick question

I give respect to those of a field I know
Little of not for their age but this is their
Sole practice I give respect for those who
Work in retail or fast food because in one
They get treated like shit for things they can't control
And for the other it's because they to get mistreated depending on the store but
There's a saying treat the janitor with the same respect as the ceo
I scoff at that the janitor is paid the least
The ceo is a wealthy person how did he get there
And most only care about pleasing the investors
Yes it's required but you could actually
Respect those who work below you treat
Them like actual humans and not a money printer
Yet that's never gonna happen in shitrica
America is just shit no matter who's at
The helm so much greed, envy, pride, lust, wrath, gluttony, and sloth
The seven deadly sins yet they everywhere
That is true yet so much feels like it's found here
Is it earned or given to others
It's a trick question in my view

People lust for power and greed for wealth
People show envy for someone's looks
There's so much wrath to the queer community especially transgender people
So much death of kind people around the world
Yet why do so many fucks not understand
That biology is not concrete there is no binary
Humans just put labels on things because
Humans think they know better yet they don't
No matter what you will never know everything
And what you think you know can be lies
Always see things from an outside perspective ask questions
But most importantly know what battle to fight and which ones are just a lost cause
Humans listen to whoever has a similar
Ideology no matter how flawed it might be
They might do it out of fear or feeling like
They're not alone yet that's the thing it
Treads a dangerous line that screams cult
Is it earned or given to others
It's a trick question in my view

I have no faith in traditional religions
No I've never read the Bible but I know
Enough to make me question too much
To actually care about the religions
For one God made a woman without
Consent to carry his child that's the jist
Of that part years later he has his child
Killed for the sins of humans yet did God
Not create humans and did he not make
Them in his image yet no one likes my
Comments on by that logic God is also
Sinful for if we're made in his image where
Do the seven deadly sins come from its
Explained lucifer yet was he also not
Made by God sure he was one of his most
Trusted archangels yet he still cast him out
Just because his creation was to prideful
Yet God made lucifer in my understanding
Sure it might've been indirectly or not but
God still let his own pride best him for
One rebellious teenager thus causing
Great resentment from lucifer who was
Forced to live in the underworld of hell
And over the years he spent there the seven deadly sins formed that's my understanding
Is it earned or given to others
It's a trick question in view

I respect mythology over normal religion
The reason is because for most of them
We have ancient text that have been carefully translated
Mythology was also more than just worship
Yes that's the main goal of any religion but
Like any religion there's flaws just mythology
Actually has the gull to point out most of the misdeeds by gods or goddesses and
Each God or goddess has a specific role in the world
For example hades is the God of the dead
The God of death is thanatos he collects
The souls of the deceased and brings them
To Charon the ferry man of the dead down
The river Styx where Christianity and catholicism have one God
One God who is revered for things that
Get brushed under the rug and the Vatican
Sure isn't gonna share it ancient texts plus
Every Bible is cherry picked by people who
Think these are the most important parts
The rest don't really matter overall for example
King James III he paid publishers and scholars to go through
Another version of the Bible and pick what they deemed important and what the king
Wanted to be in his Bible so because of
The large amount of bibles and the different content in each one I'm not going
To follow your almighty and powerful being
But I ask this did you give him your respect or was it given out of fear of punishment like he did to lucifer
Is it earned or given to others
It's a trick question in my view