"Panong nangyari to kenz? Baby pa sya, hindi pa nya nakikita ang mundo. Binawi na agad sya sakin" humagulgol pa ko lalo.
"Everything will be alright, trust me. Kayanin mo Sofia" sabi nya.
Kahit anong comfort words ata na binigay nila ay hindi umepekto sakin.
Ito ako ngayon nakatulala. Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko ng maalala ang nangyari nitong umaga.
Because of them.
I lost my baby.
They killed an innocent child.
Dapat umalis na ko nung nalaman ko palang na sila ni Ella. Hindi sana napahamak ang anak ko.Hindi sana sya nawala. Nagpakatanga kasi ako
ng sobra kay kian.Hindi ko alam kung nanadya ba ang tugtog pero saktong pinatugtog nito ang someday ni Nina.
Someday you're gonna realize
One day you'll see this through my eyes
By then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere even if I cared
Dapat ko na talagang tigilan ang kalokohan kong ito. Dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sayo Kian, anak ko ang nawala.Siguro masakit, masakit na mawalan ng anak at
madadagdagan pa ito sa paghihiwalay natin pero alam kong darating ang araw na magiging
masaya din ako.
I know you don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know that I'm not that strong
But it won't take long, won't take long
Isang malaking kasinungalingan at
pagpapakitang tao lang lahat ng pinakita nya sakin. Pinaasa nya lang ako. Ano bang mali sa pagmamahal ko sa kanya. Huwag kang mag alala Kia., makakalimutan din kita.
Cause, someday someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see I won't even miss you
Someday, someday
Wala ng maghahabol sayo, wala ng
magpapakatanga sayo. Nakakapagod din pala yung tatlong taon na ipinagsisiksikan ko sayo
ang sarili ko. Tumulo na naman ang luha ko.
Right now I know you can't tell
I'm down and I'm not doing well
But one day these tears, they will all run dry
I won't have to cry sweet goodbye
Kung pinaubaya ko na lang sana kay Ella si kian, wala sigurong masamang nangyari sa anak ko.
I'm so sorry baby wasn't able to protect you.Sorry.
Cause, someday someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone's gonna take your place
Oh, one day I'll forget about you
You'll see I won't even miss you
Someday, I know someone's gonna be there
Someday someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see I won't even miss you
Someday, someday
Siguro isa akong malaking talunan kay Ella at isa akong malaking tanga para kay kian pero darating yung araw na titingnan ko sya ng wala na kong nararamdaman na kahit na
konting pagmamahal.
Tama na, suko na ko. Ititigil ko na ang kahibangan ko na ito.
Bumukas yung pinto ng hospital room ko at iniluwa nito ang huli at unang taong gusto kong makita.
I stared at him coldly.
And he also looked at me coldly.
"Anong ginagawa mo dito?" I asked him.
"Kamusta ang baby? O-okay lang sya diba?" I can see nervousness in his eyes.
"Do you really care about the baby?"
"So totoo nga sofia, buntis ka nga. Tell me?Kamusta ang anak ko?" his hands are balledinto fist. Alam kong nauubusan na sya ngpasensya, so am I!Anak? Anak nya? Tumulo ang luha ko. Ang sarap sigurong pakinggan nun kung nasa ibang
sitwasyon kami.Kaso niloko nya ko at hindi magbabago yun,dahil dun nawala ang anak ko.
"Sofia! I am asking you, tell me!" sigaw nya sakin.
"Wala na! Wala na yung baby ko! Nang dahil sa inyo nawala ang anak ko! Dahil sayo, wala na sya!" sabi ko habang hinahampas ang dibdib
nya.Hinawakan nya ang kamay ko.
At tinitigan ako. I can see hurt in his eyes at pinalitan nya agad yung ng galit na tingin.
"It's your fault too! You are selfish! Why did you hide it! E di sana naalagaan ko kayo kung sinabi mo sakin yung totoo! You lied!"
"Sa tingin mo ba ginusto ko yun?! If only you loved me or even tried to love me in the first place hindi ako matatakot na i reject mo ang bata, hindi ba pinili mo si Ella, ilang beses mo na bang ipinamukha yun sakin?!"
Galit na galit ako, pakiramdam ko sasabog ako.
"That doesn't change the fact that you hid my child from me! You are selfish, dahil sayo namatay ang bata" Sinampal ko sya.
He looked shock.
At ganun din ako.
Ito ang unang beses na sinaktan ko sya, all these years puro pagmamahal lang ang binigay
ko sa kanya. But I had enough.
"How dare you! I'm such a fool, I wasted my three years with a man like you. All I did was to love you and what did I get in return? Sinaktan at niloko mo ko! Hindi mo ko pinili! I
waited and tried my best para mag success tong marriage na to pero sinampal na sakin na isa itong kalokohan. Ayoko na. Pagod na ko.
Masakit na sobra. Para na kong mababaliw. Tama na Kian, tapusin na natin to. I am annuling our marriage. Ako na ang bahala sa
magulang ko. I can't stand the sight of you. I am no longer your wife and you are no longer my husband. This stupid marriage is over" I firmly said.
My heart is breaking into million pieces. Pakiramdam ko ay nanghihina ako. Masakit ang desisyon na to Pero alam ko, na pag pinagpatuloy ko pa to, mas sasaktan ko lang ang sarili ko.
"sofia" he called me. Tumingin ako sa kanya. I can see defeat in his eyes.
"Go! Leave me alone" sigaw ko gamit ang huling lakas ko.
He sighed atsaka tumalikod na at naglakad.
I am watching his back.
I am watching the man I love since childhood walk out the door.
And walking out that door means walking out of my life.
I should accept the fact that we are not really meant to be together
Pinilit ko lang Kaya ito nasasaktan ako.
I love you kian
And this is the last time that I will say that before I move on.
Goodbye my love.
Kian Pov
Napahampas ako sa manibela ng sasakyan ko.
I don't know where I am going.
Hindi ko alam kung saan ba ko nasasaktan Sa pagkawala ba ng anak ko
O
Sa pag alis ni sofia sa buhay ko.
Siguro parehas.
It's all my fault
I've hurt her
And that cost our baby's life.
I know, I don't deserve her.
I should let her go.
I am so sorry sofia
Sorry for being a man who don't deserve you.
