it's you, it's always been you

chapter 64

Deena crumbled to the ground and cried, Sam's dad caught up with her and helped her calm down. He said that she would come back, she always comes back.

But this time it was different. Sam said it was over and it was ruined. That she wanted Deena to stay away from her.

Deena searched for Sam with Sam's dad for two hours before giving up and going back to her house.

Tears stained her face as she walked through her front door, ignoring her dad and Josh as she walked to her room.

She fell into bed, picturing Sam laying in it next to her the dozens of times she was.

Deena held onto the pillow Sam always slept on and hugged it tightly as she sobbed again on it.

She needed Sam so badly. She missed her so much already. She needed to know where Sam was and needed to know if Sam was okay and safe.

After a few hours Deena just held onto the pillow and couldn't fall asleep. Her chest ached too much and she was too worried about Sam. Simon and Kate came over after Josh called them.

"Deena what happened? Where's Sam?" Kate asked as they came into Deena's room.

"I lied to her again and broke a promise and she dumped me. I have no idea where she is. She literally ran from me and her dad, and told me to leave her alone."

Kate and Simon both wrapped their arms around Deena as she laid there still on her bed, on the side Sam would sleep on.

Sam walked around Shadyside for hours. She grew cold and hungry but it didn't stop her.

She made it far enough that was was in the woods between Shadyside and Sunnyvale.

She kept walking along the road until she came to a clearing with red moss on the ground.

She followed the path and ended up finding a huge rock which she sat down on, her body was exhausted.

She sighed as she looked down at her shirt, seeing blood coming from the wound she was shot at.

She lifted her shirt and looked under the bandage. She must've tore a stitch lose as she ran.

She covered the wound again and pulled down her shirt.

She was exhausted and dizzy from not eating all day plus she was bleeding. She knew she had to go to the hospital to repair the stitch.

She took a deep breath and then stood from the rock, feeling pain from her wound as she stood.

She held her side as she walked back into Shadyside. She was still so hurt and angry at her dad and Deena. But she couldn't go to them, so she went to her mom's house, it was the closest.

She didn't care what her mom had to say to her. Or that her mom was going to rub it in Sam's face when she told Sam before that she was going to come back.

Sam nearly fainted on her way to her mom's house. She knew she had to go to the hospital soon before something happened. Her had already missed a dose of her medicine today. And the medicine was at Deena's house.

Sam walked through her mom's front door, ignoring her mom as she spoke to her and went to the kitchen to drink orange juice.

It as something her doctor once told her, if she was feeling weak and dizzy and she hasn't ate anything. To drink orange juice.

"Samantha, you're bleeding?" Sam's mom stood next to Sam as she drank.

"Yeah, you know, got shot and everything by your boyfriend's son." Sam huffed, she was too emotional to hold anything back.

"He's not... we aren't together, not after you got shot." Sam's mom said and handed some paper towels to Sam.

"Oh, you draw the line at getting shot but sexual harassment is okay." Sam lifted her shirt to wipe some of the blood off her stomach.

"Samantha, I am sorry for not believing you with that. Since he shot you, I've felt terrible about even paying him to take you to prom." Sam's mom said as she leaned against the counter.

"You paid him? You literally paid him? My life gets more pathetic by the second. I don't even have the energy to tell you how messed up that is." Sam sat down in a chair, stunned at the fact her mom would pay him.

"Sam I know I haven't been great recently. But since you've stayed away from me for months and moved into your dads house, I've thought about everything a lot and I'm sorry."

Sam rolled her eyes and thought back on what she told her dad today. "You haven't been great for the last 18 years. You and dad just think you can finally care after your daughter gets cancer and almost dies, but it doesn't work like that. You can't erase how terrible you've been to me my whole life."

She stood for the chair, pressing the towels against her wound to stop the bleeding. Sam had enough of her mom already and sighed as she walked out the door.

She felt the effects of missing her medicine already, she needed to take it. She needed to go to Deena's.

She wasn't sure if she was ready to talk to Deena again, but she relied on Deena and she needed to go to the hospital before she lost too much blood.