it's you, it's always been you

chapter 103

Deena was about to slam the phone down on the receiver after it took Taylor a few seconds to reply.

"Uh hi..uhm, I just wanted to check on Sam if she was okay? Is she there?"

"Fuck you," Deena said and hung up the phone. She wasn't going to talk about Sam to Taylor even though Sam appreciated her help yesterday.

"Who was that?" Josh asked, still standing in the doorway.

"No one, get in the car."

Deena was going to stay in bed all day and just wait for Sam to call her, but she knew Josh wouldn't stop bothering her about going.

Deena called the hospital and asked for Sam's room.

"Deena?" Sam said and it made Deena feel better instantly just by Sam saying her name.

"Yes," Deena laughed, "have you been answering all your calls like that?"

"No, I just knew it would be you. I said that I was gonna call you before school, so I figured the only person that would call me at this time was you to beat me to it. And it's adorable how you answer your phone like that too."

"I know I'm impatient. I was going to stay in bed and just listen for your calls all day but Josh woke me up for school. But I'll call you as soon as I get home. How are you?"

"I'm okay. No fever really. Just more coughing and my chest feels tight but I'm fine besides that. My temperature went up a little bit. But the medicine I think is making it better. You should go to school. I'll be here anytime for you to call. They're doing some breathing treatment soon so it's okay."

There was a part of Sam that was selfish. That she wanted Deena to stay home and stay on the phone with her all day. It's only been a day and she could already tell how lonely this was going to be and how painful it was going to get for the both of them.

"Okay, that's good that they are doing treatment. And the medicine is working those are great signs and it's just the first day. You're going to be strong in no time. I believe it, Sam. I love you Sam. Please rest while I'm at school. I love you and I'll be thinking of you the whole time."

"I love you too." Then Sam hung up the phone.

She knew it wasn't their fault but she was starting to get angry how everyone around her was fine while she couldn't leave her room without the the huge risk that she could got so sick she could die.

She was angry at herself and everyone around her. She was frustrated and scared and hurt that this was happening to her again. That she had to do it alone. She was angry with her dad, Deena, her mom, all the doctors and everyone else around her.

Deena looked at the phone for a moment after Sam hung up. The way Sam spoke then hung up sounded different than the other times that Sam said I love you. Deena figured it was because she was getting more sick.

She made it to school with Josh but they were late which made Josh grumpy and annoyed with her. She planned to keep her head down the rest of the year and just get through it so she could go to New York with Sam.

She got through her classes before lunch by zoning out and drawing Sam's name in her notebook, which made her blush when she realized she was doing it.

"Why'd I have to hear about Sam being in the hospital again by Olivia and Taylor?" Kate questioned once Deena sat down at their table.

"I'd love it if you never bring up those names again." Deena sighed as she thought about the events of the day before. "Sam's mom got her sick. She had a cold but still came around Sam. She was walking to my house from her dad's house after her mom came over and told her that she needed help. Her dad asked me to leave earlier so they could talk that's why I wasn't there." Deena pauses to bring her hand to her forehead and rub her temples as she feels a headache coming on.

"And Taylor lives near Sam's dad and she saw Sam about to pass out as she was walking and helped her. Then called me and I took her to the hospital. Now Sam has pneumonia and I'm so close to doing something to Sam's mom if Sam gets bad again. I didn't tell you yet because so much has happened I didn't have time."

"Sam has to be isolated by herself until her immune system fights the disease and her white blood cell count is back up. So she's been by herself since last night and I won't be able to see her for awhile. Even when she gets so sick I won't be able to." Deena pushes her food tray away on the table. She holds her hands on her face to cover tears that are about to fall.

"She's by herself and is so weak. And I can't do anything. Her dad can't do anything." Deena took a deep breath as she calmed down. Both Kate and Simon on each side of her with a hand on her shoulders.

"And then fucking Taylor kissed Sam at a party last week and that's why Sam slapped her. And then Taylor's weird with Sam now and said she has a crush on her basically. But now Sam likes her again because she helped her when she was about to faint. Then Sam was asleep on the couch when I went to get her from Taylor's and she was being so fucking creepy and caressing Sam's face. The way only I can."

Deena shook her head, "I know she's scared of me and I'm going to make sure she stays scared."

"Deena, there's no one in this world....in the universe even! That could make Sam not be in love with you anymore. It doesn't work like that. I saw how hard Sam slapped Taylor just for calling you a slur. She didn't do it because Taylor kissed her, she did it because Taylor was trying to hurt you." Kate tried to calm Deena down.

"Yeah we all see how much you both love each other. Not some idiot cheerleader, sorry Kate, could change anything between you two. You guys have been in love for years. Probably centuries even. You guys are the only true love I've ever seen. Everyone who knows you guys see it too. Maybe that's why Taylor's starting shit or when Olivia did. But to Sam, they don't compare to you." After Simon spoke he wrapped his arms around Deena and then Kate followed.

"There's no way we can see you as the tough and mean after this," Simon joked.