her truth

little bit of happiness

Has the days went, Sandra didn't hear from her lawyer about her ex and she was redoing her whole house and getting all her ex's stuff to place to the garage, she had a feeling he was going to ask for it at some point and she just wanted to get rid of it, she then got a new bed for her toddler Sarah and redid her room and her daughter's room to there liking, she was a bit more happier and making routines, at night was hard, she couldn't seem to get her daughter's to sleep, she then started to do a story and get them to lay down, the problem was her eldest, she wouldn't stay asleep and would stay awake until Sandra would start to try and leave.
At that point because of everything Sandra didn't care if the girls got up during the middle of the night to then go and snuggle into her king size bed, Sandra was feeling very alone at that moment.
Has the first week went, the girls didn't ask about there father at all, they didn't even seem to notice that he was not there, the only time Sandra had to deal with him was when he texted her father about a few things, Sandra asked if he asked about the girls to which her father said no, seemed Diego didn't care a bit about the girls at all.
It made Sandra really sad at times that the girls didn't seem to care that there father was gone and he didn't seem to care about them to ask, Sandra did tell her father to text him and remind him what her lawyer had said he could call the girls on her father's phone and for two days nothing happened.
Sandra shrugged it off and went on with her life, she had bigger problems, she was trying very hard to get a job and nothing was panning out, the real problem was Sandra wanted to be a stay at home mother and not have to leave her girls to go to work but she couldn't find a job online she also wasn't finding anyone to help watch the girls when she might have to go to work and she couldn't find work that would match her children's schedule, she also had no contact with her exs family so she couldn't ask them for help at all.
One of the days, Sandra was to the living room to have a huge smile to her face has she was sitting down to be watching her girls dance about to have bubble guns she just got for them to be watching them dancing to a really up beat song for her smile to then start to fade for her to slowly look down.
She still didn't know if what she was doing was right or not. She seemed to be more happier, her kids seemed to be more happier, her father was about the same, he's health remains the same. Sandra really didn't know what to do or to think.
Sandra then shook her head to then smile again to then move up has her eldest had grabbed her hand to then pull her up for Sandra to then  start to dance to then have a Bubble gun to get into it to have actual fun with her girls without a person to the background to make her feel like crap.
By the night, Sandra got into her routine to then be to the floor to have just placed on lights she placed all around the room for her eldest to not be scared to read, Sandra then looked up to see Sarah was fast asleep to look to Emily with tired eyes.
"Yes?"
"Well..... I have a question."
Sandra took in a deep breathe.
"Can this wait until after I read?"
Emily took in a deep breathe to then move up to eye over her with a very serious but worried expression.
"Mom...... Wheres Dad?"
Sandras eyes widened to then take in a deep breathe to have to figure out an appropriate response to that question for a 6 year old.
"Um...... Your father is...... Gone for work. Yourll see him soon."
Emily nodded to then move back down.
"Emily.... Do you miss your dad?"
Even if there's a restraining order maybe I can find a way for them to talk to the other.
Emily shook her head.
"Not really, I'm happy there's no yelling and daddy isn't hurting you."
Sandra started to breathe in deep to look over Emily to be amazed a 6 year old would say that to her, Sandra had to take in a very deep breathe to fight back tears.
"Mm...... Okay, well it is need time and I need to read this."
Emily settled more down to then close her eyes.
"Okay."
Sandra then looked down to read the rest to then wait in the room for about 30 minutes until she thought Emily went to sleep to then leave the room to go to get room across the hall to then get ready for bed to be to the edge of her bed with her head hung to have an arm wrapped about her stomach to then have her other hand to her mouth to be stiffling her sobs has tears were running down her face, she didn't think she would get that type of response out of her 6 year old, this was killing Sandra and hurting her soul.
Sandra then closed her eyes to cry softer to then move her hands to her eyes to wipe away her tears to look through the window to place her hands to the edge of the bed to move herself a bit back and forth.
You are doing this for your children, you are doing this for your girls. You need to see this through. Hopefully it'll be over soon.
Sandra's chin started to quiver to then turn get head to see Emily come in crying.
"Mommy......I know you want me to sleep in my bed, but I'm scared..... Please can I sleep with you!!!"
Sandra took in a deep breathe to raise her arms to then beckon her daughter to her.
"That's fine Emily, come on."
Emily went to Sandra to be consoled for Sandra to look back to the door to see Sarah coming crying for the three to hold each other close for Sandra to close her eyes to take in a deep breathe.
You are doing this for them. For.... Them.....
Sandra took in a deep breathe to then have the girls be to her bed not to know the horrors that were on there way.