her truth

my dad to the rescue

Has they tried to keep the other car unfortunately they just couldn't, Sandras father told her they needed to have a car, for the children and doctors appointments, Sandra felt like utter shit, she didn't want her father to spend any more money on her, however there wasn't anything they could do. They really need a car.
Getting to one morning when her ex had the girls, Sandra and her father went to a near by car place to then look about after they got out.
"Wonder what car we should get?"
Her father looked about the lot.
"Just want something that is more stable."
"I want one that is good for the girls "
They both nodded to then go into the car place to be waiting for a bit for Sandra to go over what happened that one day, she still couldn't believe Diego would say that type of stuff however it wasn't out of the realm. Diego wanted to have the girls without really working hard for them, Sandra also was hearing from the girls when they were over there he wasn't even watching them his mother would or they would just be on technology, however there wasn't any thing Sandra could do.
Thinking about it, her father stood for them to then get up to then go to the car seller for them to get down to business, they talked for a long time for them to then be outside to be eyeing over the cars.
"I think we should get a suv, they are bigger."
"Yeah but Sandra they take a lot of gas, we should think of that "
Sandra nodded to follow her dad.
"Dad?"
Her dad looked to a car with her behind.
"Yes?"
"I'm sorry for this."
He shrugged.
"Things like this happen. We do need a car. Happy have the money to do this."
Sandra signed to eye down.
I need to pay my dad back, he is using all his inheritance on me, this isn't right.
Sandra gritted her teeth to feel so very bad. She really wish this divorce wasn't happening, she knew Diego knew about cars, even if he wasn't good at finding a real good one.
Her father then moved back to eye about.
"What about that car?"
Sandra got out of her thinking to then look to her father to see him pointing at a Ford fusion.
"Um okay "
The two then went with the car seller behind them to that car for them to then take it for a test drive, they drove around for them to go back to then sit to talk further.
"So yeah think this is the car for us."
Sandra looked to her father to wish she could do more, wish she could pay for it.
The seller nodded.
"Okay and do you. want to be both on the paperwork?"
"Since I can pay for this and my daughter only has started to work, I should be on the title."
Sandra looked to her father to have her doubts to then lean to him.
"Dad, I think I should also be on the title and some of the paperwork, I do have a job, could start to help with payments."
Her dad leaned away to eye over her.
"Sandra, you need to think about yourself, rent and the girls, I got this."
The car seller looked between them for her father to then look to him to get back down to business for Sandra to roll her eyes, she got a bad feeling about that.
"Okay, everything is done now we just need payment "
Sandra looked has her father grabbed out his card for it not to go through, they then were instructed by the car seller to then go to a casino you get the money and to take the car and they did, Sandra tried and tried to convince her father to rethink things but he was stubborn and wouldn't allow it, the two then went back to make up a payment plan and give what they could to then go and get fast food has they both were really hungry, back at home, Sandra was to the couch to be eating and eyeing down.
She really wanted to be the one to have paid for it, she really hated herself. It was her fault she got into that car accident even though it was a work truck that was being illegal, it was her fault for the divorce, her fault a lot of pain and sadness was happening, Sandra started to breathe heavily to not be about to finish her food to then place it to the fridge to then go back to the couch to lay down to squeeze a pillow to herself to look down to the television.
She was going into a very dark, negative world.
Sandra felt everything that was happening was because of her, because of her selfishness, her girls were in so much pain because of the divorce, her dad was giving her so much money for the divorce and now the car even though it was his inheritance from his father that passed.
Sandra started to really hate herself and hated that she was there in this life, are was ruining so many people's lives for just existing.
Sandra then turned her head to then place it further into the couch to start to take in deep breathes.
I don't know why my life has to be this way, what did I ever do? I'm ruining my dad's life, my girls, there family, my family, why am I even doing here anymore?
Tears started to run down Sandras face has she felt like a utter piece of shit.
Sandra then took her head out to squeeze that pillow harder to look across the way to take in deep breathes to close her eyes, she was trying very hard for the darkness not to win, but sometimes it was a losing battle, she felt so guilty, this was not the life she wanted, not a life she wanted for her girls or her dad.
Sandras chin quivered to then let fresh tears fall to be happy her dad was upstairs in his bed to but have to see her like this, has Sandra strongly believed she deserved all this and then some.