Book of My IDEAs : Eternal Imagins of Broken Brain

The way I look at her

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"This is a memoir I write from the perspective of her."

by USSR

She is still a child.
She's well over 20 years old, but she's just a child in my eyes.
Of course, she sometimes acts like an adult, but most of her behavior is like a child.

She's usually depressed, but she used to have a tendency to hold onto that emotion, but now she's different. I try to overcome that feeling somehow, but at some point, it is most likely that it bursts out.
Once faced with difficulty, she tries to panic first, but she tries to stay calm, but at some point, her mental state slowly starts to collapse.
Then she feels she can't do it and feels lethargic, which is probably what she felt when she started working part-time.
Of course, there are times when self-esteem is restored again through some training.

Her intelligence is somewhat lower than the others.
She doesn't show this on the surface, but her mother sometimes says this.
"Isn't she disabled enough to have low intelligence, ADHD, and bipolar disorder?"
Of course, South Korea never recognizes her as disabled.
So she was always confused between disabled and ordinary people.
She has problems in her daily life, but Korea says she is not disabled.
But even if she was disabled, I wonder if her life would have been easier.

She is quite adept at playing good and bad.
So she has a strong inner belief in good, and she also makes every effort to be a good person to others.
Most of the time, of course, no one appreciates the effort.
Except for her mother and Britain.
Still, I can quickly see that she is quite honest with herself when she keeps her appointment or tries to do her job faithfully somehow.

Also, she gets angry when she sees evil deeds, but sometimes she curses about evil deeds.
Maybe because she's bipolar, she doesn't hesitate to say harsh things.
"a black-hearted man."
"Human waste."
She says these dozens of times.
After hearing it, Britain says, "Lutia, can't you purify it with a prettier word?"
Then she shuts her mouth and says nothing, while at the same time she puts on a gloomy expression and gives him a hug.

She often listens to music.
She listens to music on YouTube when she's at home.
When she is outside, she listens to music with Bluetooth earphones and mobile phone MP3 players.
Her taste in music? Well... I haven't got the hang of it yet.











She is weak-minded and often gets scared in front of me.
This is why they try to avoid fighting.
So I never get help, like I'm afraid of getting help from my brother.
Still, when I see her sketch me, I feel happy that sometimes she thinks of me.
So I'm often staying by her side to stop the evil man.
(In fact, this was what her father asked me to do.)



So Lutia, I hope,
Don't look back on your past anymore.
You are no longer cursed or hated by everyone, so fill your mind with positive thoughts and look at the world with positive eyes.
And as long as I'm by your side, misfortune will not come to you, so get out of your nightmares and live as usual.













































































And I tell you,
"Father never forgets you."