Book of My IDEAs : Eternal Imagins of Broken Brain

이기적인(Selfish)

(Section 1)

I haven't been in a good mood since I found out about "the incident."

It's repulsive, it's disgusting, it's so uncomfortable 

That no matter what good thing happens to me, 

It eventually floats in my memory and makes me uncomfortable.

Ever since that day, I have a strange 

Desire to kill people in my heart.

Even if one was in a hurry to get rid of it 

Somehow, ahh, why? I'd rather not know after all.

God is so irresponsible that even a poor 

And pitiful human being does not save him.

"Father, have I wasted my life?"

Even so, the time I've lived feels so heavy.

God is so incompetent that even 

A very good process flows in a bad direction.

It's up to God's creation after all.

Nevertheless, there must have been some reason for us to live.

And it's a way of not letting anyone know after all.

(Section 2)

It's not just about my family that I'm worried about.

A myriad of small worries and sorrows 

About good people, and my country, 

They were still swirling in my mind.

God takes it so for granted, 

human suffering, sorrow, and countless worries.

And that sort of thing puts us in despair 

And says, "Come on, look. A lot of people are dying."

"Father! How long does this cycle last?"

"May I ask you a question if you say yes?"

"Father, when does this cycle of young people end?"

But even though he asks desperately, he doesn't answer eventually.

In the end, the father of mankind is ignorant of everything 

And drops innocent people into the abyss of youth.

"Did you have to make an innocent child like this?"

But the answer never comes back.

Ah, after all, is this the burden of humanity?

I know I shouldn't be so sad, but my feelings are falling into the abyss.

Was I too nosy? Or is it natural?

I want to ask that, but I don't have anyone to ask.

Eventually, my mind goes back to where it belongs.

The British Gentleman and the Winter General are watching me from afar.

Compared to him, I look so shabby.

After all, even if you look down and cry-- 

"Huh?" They're hugging me.

Somehow, my mind goes back to being positive.

If there is a miracle, 

If it really is, 

I want to believe this miracle.

"이번 두번째 생은 조금 이기적으로 살게요."

(I'll be a little selfish in my second life.)

- by INFP-T Girl in South Korea

* British Gentleman, Winter General = Great Britain, USSR