Book of My IDEAs : Eternal Imagins of Broken Brain

방심은 금물 (Don't let the guard down)

I feel like I've ruined something trivial 

And important today because of a terrible feeling.

The cause was 'negative thought'.

The negative thought tried to blacken the whole mind, 

But soon burst in and settled down.

Eventually, when I got home, 

I opened a new document and wrote a terrible story.

And I honestly told my friend about my feelings on SNS.

And my friend said, "There are more people than you."

The remark struck me in the heart.

It was true. It was inevitable, it was reality.

Only then did I realize I was bluffing.

The friend sent the message again. 

"Of course I don't take your problems lightly."

It was a relief, a consolation.

I thanked and said goodbye to him 

And went online to play online games.

I wonder if it's been that long.

I stopped the game and looked around the living room.

And I felt that heightened emotions had subsided.

"To be honest" was good, but I realized that 

I needed to have the ability to control that emotion.

I blamed myself for letting myself go 

Because of that feeling.

It was a perfect blessing for me to have a friend in SNS 

Who listened to my story without a real friend.

"Next time I'll have to color 

In some stress-relieving coloring books."

Then, I thought inwardly about taking out my old hobbies.

Of course, I am not good at drawing at all.

I'm just picking and painting the colors that suit the pictures.

And once again, I realized that 

No one would ever want to see me angry.