The Librarian and the Fox Princess: a Donghua Dijun and Bai Fengjiu story, V.I

Chapter 146 - Revelations

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A/N: It's probably just poaching but I got an email at my Wattpad inbox about another platform wanting me to publish there. Of course when they wrote "your novel showcases your capabilities as a writer," I placed my hand on my cheek and smiled with glee (I know they probably say that to everyone, but what can I say, I'm easy like that). Then I read the rest of the email and at the word "contract" I was like ... hmm.

It's probably just robotized poaching. Still, I'm not looking to write for money or fame ... not that there's anything wrong with that (though I shamelessly admit getting votes for my chapters or gaining followers is quite exciting). I also don't want a platform where my readers have to jump through blazing hoops to read my stuff. I'm comfortable here with you fine folks so for now here I shall stay ;)

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"Then what are you?" she asked while looking up at him with her doe-like dark eyes.

He was quiet and sat completely still. His gaze stretched in front of him, past her as if it moved through time to the farthest reaches of the cosmos. As she turned her head to follow his gaze it was only then she realized they were sitting far up in the canopy of the trees. He had placed a bed securely atop the fork of some large branches. Upon waking up, she had been so busy with Cang He's little brother, she had not yet surveyed the scene around them.

They were lying on a white bed.

These must be mulberry sheets.

She brushed her fingers over the refined softness. There were lavender blankets and golden brocade pillows all around them.

"Truthfully, I don't know what I am," he said quietly as she brought her attention back to him.  He leaned in to place a soft kiss on her birthmark.

"And it never mattered. I came into existence. I felt pain. I felt the pain of all sentient beings and I wanted that pain to stop. I couldn't end the cycle of birth, sickness, old age and death but I could stop war. I used war to end war. So I united the realms because if I could end war, that would minimize suffering. It never mattered what I was, all that mattered was what I could do. I could strategize, fight, and I could kill."

She was silent as she blinked back at him before leaning in to wrap her arms around his neck as he pulled her into a snug hold.

"They call me an ancient god because my contemporaries have mostly fallen into Nothingness. I honestly don't even know how old I really am," he said quietly. "In my youth, if you could call it that ... long stretches of time would pass and it was meaningless because I had no identity and no purpose."

"But now the question that used to plague me in my formative years, matters. Whatever I am ... it matters. Because now I have you," he said quietly as his gaze met hers.

The little fox princess who usually had a quip or remark for everything found herself not knowing what to say to the almighty god's admission that even he, did not know what he was.

They sat quietly, in each other's arms, their bodies breathing into one another.

"You're my Dong Hua," she whispered into his neck. "And you're my librarian."

"That I am," he replied with a small smile. "And can this Dong Hua of yours do your hair? Your head looks as if it could make a wonderful nest for at least two families of birds, Xiao Bai."

"It looks that bad?" she asked with a sheepish smile while she patted at her messy buns.

"After our love-play I aura-traveled us into this tree. I know my little fox likes to climb trees."