STEVE
I make my way past Wanda and Vision quickly as I exit her room.
I got so caught up in the moment I simply wasn't thinking.
Did I make a mistake? Of course I did, I shouldn't have put her in that position.
She has no idea what's going on in my head and I have no idea what's going on in hers. She is too young - she is 21 for god's sake! I am almost 100. This is ridiculous.
What the hell were you thinking Steve?!
I reach my own bedroom and walk through the door, closing it behind me. I stand at the entrance a bit before deciding to sit down on my bed. I put my head in my hands as the thoughts overwhelm me.
What do you want? Why did you do this?
Truth is, I don't know why I did it. It wasn't thought out before hand.
I knew I liked her and I knew I was attracted to her the first time I saw her training at the center when she didn't know I was watching.
Seeing her fight, the way she was around Peter and Tony..
I found her instantly interesting.
But infatuation has happened to me so many times before, I didn't think this would be any different.
But Madeline... the way she makes feel.
I cannot control myself around her.
Whenever I see her I just want to grab her and kiss her. Feel her. And when her fingers sparked against my skin I felt ecstatic.
What is wrong with me?
For as long as I can remember I have only ever wanted Peggy.
Even when I came back, even when she died, she was the only woman I have ever thought about or felt anything for.
But she is gone, our chance is gone, and so far it has been impossible for me to accept.
I haven't felt that way about anyone else.
There has been girls in my life lately but none has affected me the way Peggy did.
That is... until now.
Until I felt Madelines touch.
It was electric and it made me feel like I should have been feeling her my whole life. Like I had been missing out.
Like something had been missing.
I had to leave her due to circumstance but I didn't want to.
But I also truly didn't want it to go in the direction it was heading.
I mean, of course I did, she is beautiful and magnificent and I want nothing more than to be with her, but that's not all I want and after today she might think that it is all I want. It's not.
The connection I felt when I first saw her warrants something else. It's dragging me towards her like a magnet.
I cannot and do not want to stay away. That's why I volunteered when Tony said he needed someone to pick her up after training yesterday. That's why I insisted I should be the one training her.
But being near her just made the whole thing so much more intense.
Before I could watch her from afar, keep it at bay. But having her close to me, close enough to touch.. to kiss..
I haven't felt like this for so long I barely know how to interpret it. What is going on with me?
I need to speak to her when she's done with Wanda and Vision. More than that, I need to feel her again. My hands already long for her touch.
I lie down on my bed and look up at the ceiling as I gather my thoughts. I don't know why she is affecting me so much but I need to find out.
I haven't felt anything even close to this in seventy years and I need to know why I do now. Why she makes me feel this way.
I need to feel her again.
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Electric / Steve Rogers x OC x Bucky Barnes ✓
Fanfiction21 year old Madeline is training to become an Avenger when she is invited by Tony Stark to stay at the Avengers compound. It is here she meets Steve Rogers for the first time and falls in love.. But the presence of Bucky Barnes quickly complicate th...