Levi X Reader A mission worth dying for

Chapter 41

So, Levi decided to stay with me for the night, since I just had to open my big mouth. This is embarrassing. Levi was sitting on the edge of my bed reading a small notebook he pulled out of his pocket. I was still sitting on the floor feeling embarrassed about what I said. I wanted to clear my head. It's full of many thoughts, good and bad ones. I was still remembering parts of the journal that lingered in my mind.

"Levi, I'm gonna take a bath. You don't mind waiting out here?" I mentioned, as I stood up.

"It's fine. I'll find something to keep me busy." Levi replied, looking around the room. I nodded and walked to the bathroom. It was quite a nice bathroom, and it was very spacious. I let out a small sigh and turned the taps on to the bathtub, beginning to fill it up. I then stared at my reflection through the mirror. I fondled with a lock of my hair.

"What could he possibly see in me? I'm not even pretty, compared to Mikasa, and Petra... Hell, even Hange is better looking than me..." I mumbled. I let out another sigh and began to undress myself. I climbed into the tub and sat down once it was full. The warmth enveloped my body and I felt the tension leave. I leaned back and closed my eyes.

About twenty minutes later, I was about to get out until a headache struck.

"You're weak. It's only a matter of time before he sees you for the monster you were born to be."

"No! You're wrong! I'm not a monster! I haven't hurt anyone!" I spouted, as I covered my ears.

"Oh, but it's only a matter of time until he sees right through your act."

"Shut up!" I shouted.

"Face it, (y/n). You know it too. He's feeling pity for you, he doesn't really love you. You are a monster."

"I said shut up!!" I shouted.

I suddenly heard banging on the door.

"(y/n)?! What's wrong?" Levi's voice spoke. I gasped and looked towards the door.

"Titan!"

"Monster!"

"Murderer!"

"Parasite!"

The voices were getting louder and louder. It hurt so much.

"Don't you see you're useless without me. I can give you power, let me make you stronger."

"NO!! SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!" I bellowed. Suddenly the door burst open and I was embraced from behind.

"What's wrong (y/n)?!" Levi asked, as he was holding me tightly. I was breathing heavily, and tears were pouring down my face. I had my arms wrapped around my chest, and the water was covering up the rest of my body.

"They won't stop... The voices just get louder. I'm scared... I don't know how to make it go away..." I cried.

"Come on, get up." I felt Levi's arms leave me and he wrapped a towel around me. "Get changed, and I'll wait outside." Levi ordered, as he left the room.

When will this end?

I got dressed and walked out of the bathroom. Levi sat there waiting for me. I noticed that he cleaned up all the papers I left. The room looked a lot cleaner from before. I guess this is what he meant by finding something to keep him busy.

"Are you alright?" Levi asked, as he walked over to me. I looked down to the floor.

"No. I'm not alright at all." I replied.

"Maybe you should see a doctor about this." Levi suggested. I shook my head.

"A doctor can't fix this. Only one solution." I replied. I walked over to my suitcase and opened it up. Three syringes and a few bottles of liquid were presented.

"What is that?" Levi questioned. I grabbed a syringe and inserted the syrim.

"It's what father used to erase my memory." I replied in a quiet voice. I heard Levi let out a gasp.

"You mean you want to erase your memories?!" Levi shouted. I remained quiet and rolled my sleeve up.

"It's the only way to make it stop." I went to insert the needle when suddenly Levi slapped the syringe away and grabbed my wrists tightly.

"No (y/n)! I will not let you do this! Are you seriously prepared to throw your life away?! Do you want to forget about me again?" Levi argued. I gasped when he said that last part.

"Who are you? I'm sorry, but I don't know who you are."

"Levi... I'm sorry... But I'm going insane..." I cried. Levi embraced me tightly. I cried so much I ended up falling asleep right then and there.

Levi's P.O.V

(y/n) passed out in my arms. Her eyes were red and puffy, and her skin was pale. I picked her up bridal style and carried her over to bed and gently laid her down. I laid down beside her and put the blanket over her.

How am I supposed to help her? She won't explain it all to me, all I know is that she's suffering. I need to keep her from doing anything reckless, but this is (y/n), it's impossible. The only thing I can do is protect her.