im tired of everything in life now.
my friends all think im this happy bubbly person when in reality, im no where near that.
once i leave my friend's house after school, I become all depressed and shit. i fucking put on an act, i hate that. i feel like im such a fake but i have to because if i didn't my friends would make their stupid comments. acting as if everything was a joke.
today my friend even told me that im not what she calls, transparent. you can't see my emotions.
well guess what, your fucking right. you can't see my emotions. i've learned to hide them.
my friend, lets call her Anne. She has no problems in life, her parents are happy, they never are fighting. Her dad and mom never yell at her. yet she complaines that her life is horrible. then when my other friend is talking about her mom's boyfriend, anne tells her to go hide in her room.
yeah like thats actually gonna work cause i know its not. then when i try to give my friend advice, she doesn't take it. (my mom used to have an ugly ass boyfriend before my parents got back together). she instead takes the advice that Anne gave her and locks herself in her room.
my friends are conceited bitches that don't care about anyone but themselves.
today my mom said that i was always unhappy and she couldn't joke with me. she tried to kick me out of her car. i felt like crying. i swear this whole friend thing is ruining my life and i don't know what to do anymore. people do say that you will eventually drift apart from your friends in middle school, and its honestly true.
-ashley
