so today wasn't a very good day. more like bad but i'll trry to not be negative for once. it seems like tuesdays are never my cup of tea idk why i blame physics <---lol what
basically this morning i went over to my best friends house, because we carpool, so i get ready and everything at her house. she was talking to me and i was like messing around with my bracelets on my wrist and she like stopped talking.
AND SHE FUCKN GRABS MY WRIST and is like "Jade, let me see your wrist." (keep in mind she doesn't know that i cut) and im like "wtf no fuck off." and shes stronger than me so she takes my wrist and pulls the bracelets up and shes like "what's that mark jade?" and i said "i don't know." and i get out of her grip and change the subject.
so a couple of minutes later she was talking about someone with bad taste and was like "she needs to go kill herself" (as a joke, that i didn't find funny) and she saw my face and she was like "oh, shit not kill herself, that's bad." and i was like "yeah, dude dont say that." and she said "but seriously jade what was that scar?" and i was like "nothing."
BECAUSE I HAVE THIS REALLY DEEP SCAR THATs STILL RED FROM LIKE THREE WEEKS AGO THATS KINDA NOTICEABLE, but she never noticed my other ones cause they're not as deep BUT IT WONT FUCKN HEAL.
LIKE GUYS IM SO FUCKN EMBARRASSED I NEVER WANTED MY FRIENDS TO KNOW THAT I CUT ESPECIALLY NOT MY BEST FRIEND and i almost started crying in front of her too, but i didnt. it just really pisses me off and like i hate myself even more. i wanted to make sure nobody knew about it, but know im pretty sure she knows, although i never admitted it to her.
and during school people are just major idiots and it really makes me mad and not to mention i have a shit ton of work to be doing rn but here i am on wattpad. i forgot my fuckn math book and got a detention and failed a quiz. WHAT IS LIFE?
anyways i like to end this on a positive note by saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVAN PETERS YOU BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL MAN
Loves,
-Jade
