Jade♡-
So everyone has their idols and everyone wants to meet their idols. Right?
It doesn't necessarily mean it has to be Demi Lovato, 5sos, or 1d.
It's who you have an interest in and truly love.
And sometimes I get so sad because I realize wow I'm never going to meet my idols, my babies, the ones that keep me going.
Surprise surprise 5sos are my idols.
And when I see them with fans, like a video of the fan with them saying they love them, it hurts me, because I know I may not meet my idols. And be that person to tell them I love them and hug them tight and say how they've made such an impact on my life.
How much they make me happy and not so depressed anymore. Their music makes me happy, their happiness makes me happy, their voice and smile makes me happy.
I just want to be one of those people of living my dreams of meeting the people I love.
It's 10 pm, I'm sad, I'm tired, I'm still on my period and I'm v emotional okay.
And I just saw this girl who met Michael and Luke at the airport and she was crying and now I'm crying.
Because that's literally all I want in life.
ESPECIALLY when someone meets Michael and I'm not that person, I FEEL SO ATTACKED. AND SAD. I JUST WANT TO MEET MY BABY.
Toughen up Jade, stop being a weak little pussy.
And it makes me mad and hate myself even more because I think why didn't I like these boys earlier. Why did I discover them early last year and not in 2011 or 2012? Seriously like what was I doing in those years?
Why didn't I go to gigs or concerts last year when I had a fucking chance? When they were cheap as hell and the boys were not famous, because now it's just so hard and I'm screwed.
I hope this is a rant we can all relate to lol okay.
