i hate fears
(( i have anxiety but anxiety isnt a fear just dont get me started on that ))
like i mean when i was little
i used to have a fear of going to sleep bc i thought that the house would be set on fire or the top bunk of my bed would fall and kill me or somebody would break in
these are all irrational fears...yet i still have some fears today like that
and including cydad's rant,
im afriad of death
what happens after death?
will i just lose my sight and see darkness?
will people remember me?
but, we will never really really know until we do die. and i was close to death, it was only darkness, but is that because i ended up alive?
but like it could happen anytime and anywhere, like there was a shooting at my mall a few weeks ago, what if i was there and died? what if it will happen again?
what if somebody pushes me onto the road where the cars are?
what if somebody actually lcomes up and kills me?
ik ik these are all rlly irrational questions and fears, but still.
-riley
