Hi it's Jade. 🐼 And pandas aren't racist.
So I'll be discussing the topic of loners. Aka me.
I'm not kidding when I say I'm a loner. I always walk alone, I always get picked last, I don't talk to anyone.
So usually if you first meet me I am quite social. I can make a conversation easily. But if the next day you don't talk to me then I assume you want nothing to do with me.
I legit only have 3 friends. I've known them for years and trust them with anything. But I'm not going to make a new friend and tell them my whole life story. I have no classes with them and only hang out with them during lunch.
I can't make any new friends, it's been like 3 weeks since school has started an everyone already has their group of friends and have known each other for years.
So I walk the halls alone, with no one by my side. I sometimes eat alone. The feeling is not good. But some people are maybe to shy to even talk and have the same situation as me or even worse, so I shouldn't be complaining. (My heart goes out to them, U THE REAL MVP NIGGA) who am I supposed to talk to? My classmates? Fuck no. They don't care about me, I don't care about them.
So in middle school, 7th and 8th grade year, I was in a girl clique with like 10 other girls. Yeah we were the best of friends yada yada yada.
But it didn't feel good when they talked shit behind your back, gossiping. And then go to lunch and act like everything is alright. No it's fucking not.
Now I'm not saying having those certain group of friends isn't right. As long as you are nice and loyal and trust each other, then good for you.
Basically this year, I don't want drama. I don't want that kind of shit of being fake and backstabbing.
I'm not considered a normal girl. I don't talk about thongs or boys and gossip about others. I hate peace signs and duck faces. I hate when others bring other people down, just because they're living a miserable life. I'm not going to change for anyone, but I'll change for myself.
I am very monotone, dry, and quiet at school. I don't care for people that don't care for me. I can be social, if you actually talk to me. I can be very nice, as long as you don't cross me, say something to piss me off, or annoy me.
I have no social accounts (except fan accs of course wink wink) because who the hell cares about what my classmates are doing or buying or seeing next weekend.
Literally I consider myself a loner. And that's better than being fake and needy any day, in my opinion. I'm a very independent person. I keep most things to myself. Except on here.
I'm annoyed by people's presences usually, and they just bother me too much. I only enjoy talking to people on here or twitter. You make me happy, my Internet friends make me happy, bands make me happy, music makes me happy. :)
This kinda got very off topic.
I have no RAGRATS. ;)
I just had to get this off my chest and tell this to you fellow readers. If you can relate to me then don't be afraid to message me or talk to me on twitter.
Loves,
Jadie ☠
