julia here x
im currently drinking coffee and crying.
so i tried texting like all of my friends today and none of them answered and so i immediately think 'oh hey, they prob stayed up too late and slept it'
they just texted me back and all said they were at a party. i guess i wasnt invited and i bet they were all at the same party.
they made me feel like shit.
why didnt i get invited? maybe im just too good for them or something... smh
i stg if this happens again then i will die.......
its almost christmas... thats a plus right?
this year wont even be the same though. my granny died 2 months ago and she was always the happiest person when we would get our gifts. why couldnt she have stayed for one more christmas? i never really thought about how much i would miss her until now. it will be totally different. after this christmas, the rest of my moms side of the family wont even come up for holidays... so this is the last christmas i will see my cousins. i have my dad's side of the family though, they wont strand me for a while. its just going to be different though...
my hair looks like shit but i will have to try tomorrow bc i will be in public and my mom thinks i have to be all dolled up for christmas... and im just like 'stfu i need sleep'.
anyways, i hope you guys have had a good day or will have a good day, depending on the time zones.
i love you x
bye bye x
~julia xx
