sometimes i think my parents hate me...but like i don't know. maybe that's why im so depressed now.
and like my friends take everything as a joke.
i think friday was the worst day of the week for me. I had been ignored at school like my friends would be talking about the world ending and one was asking the other one "what would you eat first?" like i wasn't even included.
the only people that talk to me at my school are like a girl that has the same schedule as me so we have all the same classes. one boy I've known since 1st grade and another boy who i've known since 3rd grade. like they talk to me but my "best friends" ignored me and I didn't really say one word to them maybe hi but it wasn't a full sentence.
sometimes i'll ask one of them what we had for homework since we have the same teachers. she won't respond until like 8 pm when i already put my backpack away.
or she'll ask me for my science homework and i'll answer right away. i feel like a piece of trash. they only talk to me when they need me to give them something.
next year i don't want any classes with them. i don't even care if i don't have lunch with them. I feel like shit when im with them anyway.
i should find new friends shouldn't I? i don't really think i belong with them and everyone at my school are assholes only a few are actually nice.
i want to go to a different highschool and not have to see them but that won't happen because it's the only highschool that's closest to me.
I don't really know if i should be friends with them???? jade help me!!
i wish you guys went to my school, i would actually be excepted and probably not feel like absolute shit like im a piece of trash.
i just want someone to talk to....
but thank you jade ily you've helped me so much ❤️
-ashley
