i went to knotts berry farm today, it was for a field trip invovling choir and band.
it was a horrible experience. i've been to knotts before but i felt like i was third wheeling as usual.
i thought my friend would ride the rides along with me but no. she went with another friend and i went on like 4 different rides with my grandma.
i love my grandma for that. she's litterally 63 years old and she went on roller coasters with me aww.
then they pulled me onto this ride, i don't even know what its called because i had no choice.
i got so fucking dizzy. i was dizzy for 2 hours straight, i still feel dizzy as of right now the room feels like its spinning.
then i went on silver bullet and omfg i got even more dizzy. i think i died and right when i got off the ride, i felt like throwing up. thank god i didn't.
i didn't ride any rides woth my "supposed" best friend.
she talkes to me when there's no one else to talk to. im being used and its obvious.
my mom called her a bitch when she found out. my mom slays. now my grandma and mom can't get mad when it seems like im unhappy.
my grandma usually buys her things, this time when she realized my friend did this, she didn't buy her anything.
they went on so many rides together, i probably went on like 4, today was horrible. they kept making fun of every little thing i did.
yanno if she really doesn't want to be my friend anymore then she doesn't have to. i would be will to walk away now.
one time i asked her and my other if i was annoying, guess what they said...
yes.
it hurt me so much, i stopped talking right then.
i know why i guess im annoying though.
i have this problem where if i think of something that seems funny to me, i'll continue to say it until i forget about it.
i can't help it though, plus i say things without thinking and words just come out of my mouth without me realizing i said anything.
im weird and annoying asf i guess. oh well
-ash
