So i realized that im afraid of many things. (like the dark and the dentist, jk but seriously listen to that song on the top/side because same)
i think many people can relate to me that ew bugs i hate bugs except for like butterflies and shit like that and im scared that if i pick up a bug its gonna crawl all over me and devour my soul (dont ask im weird) adn i can take ants, but if they are in a huge like clump JUST NO BACK THE FUCK UP AND TAKE 1000000 STEPS AWAY FROM ME. but if you like bugs good for you, you have balls.
one of my worst fears is that i wont be successful in my life, im afraid that im gonna lose focus and something is going to happen and ill be working at mcdonalds when im 30. Like legit im scared thats going to happen to me. cause i get distracted super easily.
But i also scared of surgeries, because theres always that slight chance that you cant survive or something might go wrong and ugh i dont even like talking about it. and bad things always happen to me, so i would most likely be that one patient.
and last my one true fear that ive always thought about is that when i cut (and first lets get one thing straight; cutting is an addiction and no im not proud of it, but its what i do to relieve everything in my life so dont fucking tell me that im better than that or to stop okay? just respect my decisions) that one day i may go too deep and hit a vein/ artery or some shit and then I lose a lot of blood and accidently kill myself, when im not ready to give up my life. That is my one and true fear in life. And you might think 'well why dont you just stop cutting then?' its not that simple okay, and you wouldnt understand unless you cut or used to. (I can't tell you to stop becasue then im a fucking hypocrite, so stay strong is all im saying)
well anyway yay we learned more about Jade today and her fears, if you have any leave a comment below.
loves ♥
~Jade
