hey guys
it's cat
life sucks, man
i feel like every attempt i make to be nice to people and try and communicate and have fun with them is for nothing
my "friends" from school almost never talk to me outside of it
whenever i do something remotely weird around them or say something "strange", they sort of exchange these obvious "wtf are we doing socializing with her" faces
on instagram (i know it's stupid but hear me out) like 1% of my followers are active, and every time i try to communicate with them they sort of just ignore me
i feel like i'm slowly pushing myself further and further away from people
i don't mean to, honestly
in fact most of the time i'm the one trying to socialize with them, but all they ever do is ignore me because they all have better friends and better things to do
i know i do these "i'm so alone" rants kind of a lot, but it's really getting to me lately
i don't know what to do anymore, guys
i'm honestly starting to get scared that i might hurt myself
help me
