First off I'm very pissed off and emotional still even though this all happened yeseterday, I've never had such a bad day, it was probably the worst day I've ever had.
So first of all I was late to school and my teacher gave me shit about it EVEN THOUGH IT WAS MY FIRST TIME EVER BEING LATE TO HIS CLASS and my second period teacher assigned us a lot of hw and we have two tests coming up for him.
my "friend" spilled my soda on me because she accidently knocked it over and it took everything in me not to punch her in the face.
Then during sixth period while I help with the guys vball practice and like shag balls and stuff for my coach i GOT HIT IN THE FACE AND HEAD 6 TIMES. 6 FUCKING TIMES and i was just so done and of course the guy (s) who hit me apologized but one of them didnt even know my name, the rest did. LIKE JUST BECAUSE IM TALL DOESNT MEAN IM A FUCKING TARGET.
Later on during my practice I was talking to my friend on one court and my ex-boyfriend decided it would be so smart to hit a ball in between us. (yeah i have to see him every fucking day) So i said 'are you trying to kill us?' but like jokingly. and he's like 'i knew what i was doing." and it wasn't even in a joking matter it was like cocky and asshole like so i said 'well you dont have to be an asshole about it, i was just joking okay?" and he just gave me a look and left.
LIKE THAT REALLY PISSES ME OFF THAT PEOPLE WANT TO JUST BE ASSHOLE FOR THE HECK OF IT LIKE I NEVER DID ANYTHING TO YOU, IT WAS ALL YOU AND YOUR DOUCHEBAG ASS. Also i was mad that i almost got hit AGAIN.
OH BUT IT GETS BETTER.
So my mom just got out of the hospital from a surgery and i got home and she starts yelling at me about how i've been such a self centered little bitch and how i didnt acknowledge her after her surgery and i havent helped her, like wtf yes i have. I Dont even want to talk about it anymore bc there so much more.
once my mom calmed down she told me her friend died and she believes it may have been from suicide because she had depression issues. That made me very emotional, because I could relate to it so well. ANd it so sad to know that someone you were once close to has died.
Im officially done. I'm so done, like I never in my life been so emotional or cried or wanted to punch a wall so much. And i still have a headache from all of yesterday.
~Jade
