Today has been shit.
So I woke up and noticed that some people had reposted one of my tumblr posts and I was like "cool" because that doesn't happen to me a lot but the thing is...
One person had told me that I should kill myself.
I haven't gotten a ton of hate comments in my life. Yeah, I got those ones from a while ago saying I was ugly and a bitch, but that is a million times different than being told to commit suicide.
I ended up deleting the post, but that has stuck with me all day and it still hurts as I'm writing about it.
So then I ended up going to school, though I really didn't want to at that point because of the post, and during 4th period I noticed something.
I lost 3 or 4 of my source cards for my research paper.
Along with my notes that went along with them.
So I was stuck with, like, one source and 30 notes from one book.
Thank god I had the websites bookmarked on my school iPad, but I still can't find them and I don't know where they went.
Then I got to Algebra, and at that point I was just done.
Everyone around me was like "I understand this! I get it!" while I was just sitting there with tears of frustration streaming from my eyes because MOTHERFUCKING ALGEBRA
So now I'm finally home and I'm pissed and sad and I feel monumentally conflicted over a ton of things.
Also, I want to mention this: on my past few rants, either no one or one person has commented on them, other than me. Am I suddenly uninteresting? Are those particular rants boring or irrelevant? Are you guys just not commenting all of a sudden?
I'm kind of thinking about taking a break from ranting on here altogether tbh. After this morning, I've sort of started feeling a lot more sad than usual...I'm not usually like this. I don't know if it's just that that stupid comment got to me, or the lack of comments on here, but I'm feeling conflicted about it.
Please don't ignore this post. I see the vote count rising. I know you're there.
-Cat
