So it's Cat, and I think I might have scared some people with my last rant
Let me be clear: I said I was scared I was going to start hurting myself; that wasn't supposed to mean what you guys think it meant
See, I have this thing I do when I get reeeeeeeally upset and I consider starting to cut or do anything to myself
What I do is I take a sharpie pen, and I write the 5sos symbol along with a little message next to it, like the picture on the side/top/wherever the fuck it is
This time I also drew three red lines underneath it
Cuts that won't scar
Cuts that will fade away
I'm scared of myself, yes
But I'm trying to avoid hurting myself at all costs
I'm just feeling really rejected by the people I though were my friends, especially when my brother goes out with his girlfriend and I'm stuck with my parents being forced to go to the gym with them or some shit
I didn't mean to terrify anyone out of their mind
Honestly
I'm not trying to be an attention whore, it's just that this is the only place I feel like I can really express my feelings
I ranted about this on this instagram account I coown, and the other coowner ended up snapchatting me telling me that if I keep complaining I should just leave
And it wasn't in a sympathetic way
Again, I'm so sorry for scaring you guys, I just don't know what to do anymore
I feel like I've run out of stuff to complain about and people to talk to
You don't all have to go messaging me about suddenly wanting to be my friend, because knowing me, I'll exchange about 3 messages with you and we'll somehow end up never talking again
I think everyone feels alone at some point or another in their lives
I think that at this point, I'm just feeling it a little bit more
I love you guys <3
