Hey it's Cat
It's like 2 in the morning right now and I honestly don't care that much.
Saturday (yesterday, technically) had a lot happening.
My mom woke me up to tell me that my baby cousin, Amazing Grace, died that morning.
She lived so much longer than any of us actually expected, but I can't tell if that's good or bad because it's like it got our hopes up that she would get better.
Now we're going to visit my little cousins (her siblings) next week and I don't know how the hell I'm going to manage because I ended up meeting Grace before it happened and it's going to hurt so much to see them.
Then I got my friend to come over and we got ice cream, so that definitely helped.
Then I saw the news about Michael.
I don't think I've ever been so worried about anyone (other than family bc duh) in my entire life.
Like I've been stressing all night.
I know he's okay and all but I won't be until I see those bandages off his face.
*sighs*
I'm actually managing to build my social life now, so that's a good thing. I think I'm going to actually start trying to organize stuff with my friends from school now that it's summer, and I'm actually starting to feel somewhat happy with myself and not like shit all the time.
I ACTUALLY HAVE A LEGIT SOCIAL LIFE
*canned applause*
So yeah, that's how I've been. Sort of a rollercoaster of emotions lately, but I'm getting through it. Plus one of my books hit 10K recently and I'm still on a high from that even though it's been at least a week.
Love you guys, and I should probably go to sleep now lol.
