(Wow i have been so scared to post this. I've just been dealing with a lot of self doubt about my writing i even thought of stopping but its the only thing that's truly mine I know i don't now all the ins and outs of medical jargon or police procedure but i try. Plus the writer block is horrible but i struggled to get this out. and trust me i know it's not good.) Oh there is some phone sex.)
The next morning I woke up feeling a little tired but I guess that's what happens when you wake up every hour on the hour.
I could hear everything, every sound, the house creaking, dodger moving in his dog bed, no matter what i did i couldn't get my mind to shut off.
I looked at the clock and saw it was 6am.
"Ugh this is ridiculous, i just wanna sleep but i can't. Guess I'll get up."
I grabbed my robe and headed downstairs and made some coffee. I sat at the kitchen counter and checked my phone waiting for the coffee to finish. I had some emails, a text from Linda telling me she is sending out my package and a text from Chris that made me smile.
Good morning my love. I hope you have a great day. I love you and I'll talk to you later. Xoxo <3
I smiled and felt my heart flutter. He always knew what to say to make me smile and just be so in love with him.
I was sitting in the living room drawing when the doorbell rang. When I answered it, it was Megan.
"Hi Sweetie."
"Hey Megan, come on in. You want something to drink, coffee, tea, water, beer, wine."
"Meh it's 5 o'clock somewhere wine please." Megan said
I grabbed a bottle and two glasses.
"It's nice out how about we sit outside."
Megan nodded and we headed outside. I pour her a glass and me one as well.
"Ok so tell me how did you sleep." Megan asked.
"I really didn't, and I thought I would but I don't know why I couldn't sleep."
"Well you have gone through a lot and your body just needs time to catch up. Now the phone call did you make it." Megan asked.
"Yes I did. I called Maci's mom and we talked and she said she doesn't blame me for what happened."
"And how did you feel after she said it?" she said
"I felt like I had a weight lifted off me. I felt like I could breathe a sigh of relief for the first time in so long."
"I hear a but." she said
"But even though Linda said she doesn't blame me, a part of me still blames myself. And I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself for that or for anything else I've done."
A few hours later Megan headed back to her place and once again I was alone with my thoughts and that wasn't good.
I sat and thought about everything I said to the family, how i should have been happy for Carly but deep down i was screaming, i want what Carly has i want to give that to Chris.
It was finally the end of week 1 and I was feeling a little better but I was still stressed. I think I have read every book I own, I've watched pretty much everything I could think of.
But the bright side of this was I got to talk to Chris every day and night. I really missed him.
I would spend the day drawing in my sketchbook just some doodles here and there. I had my sessions with Megan, talking about what i went through or how i was sleeping which wasn't much.
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The Interview
RomanceLisa Anderson has always been a local New York reporter, then she gets her big break and has the biggest interview of her life and his Name is Chris Evans. What happens when one big interview turns into a love that even her past can't break.