They're two way bridges and yet I burn em
Purposely lit them watch the flames wreak
Em all while try to douse the flames repair
What I can always finding theres nothin' left
Only enough rope for a tight rope choose
To hang myself instead to protect people
From my self God made a choice cast out
The devil and yet the devil was all I knew
At home for nine years I learn how to burn
Bridges never able to maintain em helpless
To watch them fall into neglect like I was
Subjected to wondering what I did to earn
Fate scorn and become a misfit to misery
The battles lurkin in my eyes shadowed by
The coldness of the mask that crumbles yet
It pulls itself back together just a quick so
People don't worry about me rather suffer
In the silence of my misery then have one
Person see how damaged I am uncaring
For presentation fuck beauty standards
Fuck those who only see the face value
Of someone they don't care they never did
They're two way bridges and yet I burn em
The blood fuck the blood it's a curse in me
Keeps me alive yet its carrying the sins of
Things I'm terrified to admit nightmares
They became reality and I was forced to
Witness my family turn on each other or a pack
Of wolves fighting for food or power I don't
Know what it was for I don't want to the
Scars are so deep burnt into my soul full
Of ash things no child should go through
But hell was all I knew became numb to it
Witnessing my own death in my psyche to
Escape from it all left it altered and fractured
The mind is mine yet its not mine got a
Bunch of parts trying to keep the gears
From lockin up the body is a shell of what
Once inhabited it there's little joy when the
Pain can't be forgotten there's only depression
As you realize you're alive yet the body feels
Like a corpse and the bridges you lit aflame
Become a forest of self isolation to protect
People from the fire inside Lashing out
Itching to be unleashed begging whisperin
That everything will be fine the voice it's
Sickly sweet doesn't belong yet its there
Another thing to carry yet you try so hard
To keep the bridges stable before they give
Out halfway across fall into the gorge drown
In the doubts of your own mind questions
Lacking answers or answers you dare not
Speak for they hurt worse than the pain
You endured yet when will it end you kill
Yourself slowly by being alone not daring
To reach out when you should because the
Flame with in can go from embers to an rageful inferno
Now another bridges is left is disrepair
They're two way bridges and yet I burn em
YOU ARE READING
words from a broken soul
Poetryjust a collection of free verse/rondel poems(short stories to lengthy ones I guess) I've written over the course of ten months so far some won't be uploaded as I know they would get flagged as to dark of topics so yeah enjoy or don't. Feed back is h...
