Bill Hader Imagines

I'll Always Love You (Bill Hader)

Warnings: Reader is FTM

Y/N wasn't comfortable being his true self around others. He was afraid that his friends and family would hate him for being different. He hadn't even told his boyfriend Bill that he was FTM. He couldn't hold it in anymore. He had to be real with somebody so he chose to tell Bill.

Bill had invited Y/N over for dinner, and he decided that he was going to tell him tonight. Y/N got dressed in clothes at he felt comfortable in, and he nervously drove to Bill's house. When he arrived, he took a deep breath before exiting his car. He knocked on Bill's door, and he answered it a confused look. Bill shook his head and pulled Y/N into a hug.

"I've missed you so much, sweetheart."
"I've missed you too, Bill."

Bill pulled back and placed a quick kiss on Y/N's lips. He observed Y/N's outfit a little more, and his confused look returned.

"So, what's with these clothes?"
"Oh, I just feel comfortable wearing these."
"Oh okay. Well, dinners ready. Let's go eat."

Y/N laughed nervously as he followed Bill to the dining room. They both sat and began eating. They talked about their days and how work was. When they finished eating, Bill suggested that they move to the living room.

They were sitting in the couch, cuddled close to each other, and Y/N's nerves were eating him alive. He couldn't hold it in anymore. He shifted away from Bill a little, and he looked at him.

"Bill, there's something important that I need to tell you."
"Go ahead, babe. I'm all ears."

Bill turned to face him, and Y/N took a deep breath. He let it out slowly as Bill looked at him intently.

"I-I'm transgender."
"What?"
"I'm transgender."
"No, I heard you the first time. Are you...um...you know...uh?"
"I'm FTM. That means I was born a female but I'm transitioning into a male."

Bill went quiet, and he moved his gaze from Y/N to the floor. Y/N's nerves began to attack him again, and he shifted towards Bill and placed a hand on his thigh. Bill suddenly stood up in front of the tv, and he stared at Y/N with an upset look.

"Why didn't you tell me this from the beginning?"
"I-I didn't know how you would react. You're the only person I've told so far because you mean the most to me. I thought that you deserved the truth."
"Why are you telling me all this now? You didn't think that I deserved to know from the beginning?"
"Bill, I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. It took me years to learn how to love myself for who I am, and this is me. I'm not changing who I am because I'm happy with who I am."

Bill looked away from Y/N as a million thoughts ran through his mind. Y/N's legs began to bounce and tears started filling his eyes. Bill look back at Y/N with a serious look on his face.

"I think you should leave."
"What?"
"You should go. I don't...it's just that...I can't do this with you. Just go."
"Okay."

As Y/N spoke, tears began to fall from his eyes. He got up out the couch and walked to Bill's front door. He turned around and looked at Bill. He gave him a sad smile, and it faded as he spoke.

"You don't accept me, and you can't be in a relationship with someone like me because of your reputation right? That's okay. Before I go, I just want you to know that I'll always love you. No matter what. Goodbye, Bill."

Y/N turned back to the door and wiped his tears. He opened the door and walked out of Bill's house. As soon as the front door shut, Y/N ran to his car as rain began to fall from the night sky. He quickly got in as more tears fell from his eyes. He laid his head down on the steering wheel as he cried. He heard a knock on his window, and he raised his head and saw a soaking wet Bill standing outside his car. He got out of his car, and Bill pulled him into a tight hug.

"I'm so sorry, Y/N. I'm so so so sorry. What I did you was wrong. I shouldn't have told you to leave like that. I'm sorry for judging you and not letting you explain everything. I do accept you because I love you. It's just gonna take me some time to adjust."
"I'll give you all the time you need because I love you too."

Bill leaned down a captured Y/N's lips in a deep kiss. Y/N wrapped his arms around Bill's neck, and they both jumped and pulled away when they heard a loud drum of thunder. Bill grabbed Y/N's hand, he lead him back to his porch. Bill looked down at Y/N, and a small smile came to his face.

"Would my boyfriend like to comeback inside and put on some dry clothes and make out with me on the couch?"
"He'd love too."

Y/N smiled at Bill as he pulled him into another kiss. They pulled away, and Y/N rested his hands on Bill's cheeks. He really did love Bill, and he was happy that Bill was attempting to adjust to the real Y/N. He knew it took time, and he was willing to give Bill all the time in the world.